blackrosemd1

Haha...so, for anyone that read my last blog...you will know that I am falling hard for a married woman. Tonight, I had her naked in my bed, and couldn't do anything about it.

It's all in my head...I know that. I had pictured the moment so many times, and it wasn't what I pictured. She was as beautiful as I thought she would be, but I couldn't get my brain to stop thinking...thinking she wasn't having a good time, because she wasn't making any noise...making self-deprecating comments the whole time...blaming it on the condom.

I felt like I was a virgin again...I was shaking so bad that I could barely move. She makes me really nervous, and I don't know why, except that I'm pretty sure that I love her already, even though I know that nothing can ever come of it.

This is the second time in two weeks that I have had a beautiful naked woman in my bed....and the second time in two weeks that I couldn't perform. At least the first time, I had an excuse. I was massively drunk. I don't know what happened tonight, except I couldn't get out of my own head.

Time to see if I can find some drugs I think. Valium, percocet, oxycontin....anything. Anything that will make me stop thinking and just be with her.