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Friday May 30, 2003

May 30, 2003
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"Who will die? You said someone must die."
"The poet will die. The visionary."
-The Hours

I realized with glee today that I do not have to kill myself.

Just what lives inside.

And I can do that. With cold, cruel efficiency. I will drink and fall down many more flights of stairs and maybe even start going to the sex club like everybody else.

There is always some stupid reason for someone not to love me, like "commitment issues" or they just get scared for some stupid reason.

Well...I will kill what lives inside me and fill it with something so horrible and ugly that it will give every woman in the world an ACTUAL reason not to want me.

I will kill it. Murder it. Place the blade against the soft part of the throat and pull. Violence. Did you know that losing your mind is rather erotic?

The poet must die.

The visionary.
VIEW 4 of 4 COMMENTS
demigauge:
frown
May 30, 2003
volkov:
anger, madness, loss... very sexy shit.

you're not ugly on this inside anymore than you are on the outside.
I can see why you might frighten someone. you're strong and passionate and you WANT a lot and you know you deserve to get it. maybe they don't feel up to it and look for a lamo's way out? I don't know.

le poete es mort
long habiter le pote

smells like it's all burning up inside.
burning like a aries gone mad.


May 30, 2003

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