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I did not comment back to anyone (I don't think) about comments on my last post. As you may or may not remember, I wasn't asking for help, I was just curious.

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What's really on my mind lately, at this very moment: Should I or should I not move to North Carolina?

It's becoming a truly difficult decision with all the odds stacked against me moving. The only thing that keeps me thinking that I should go is my drive to leave. To get the fuck out of this place. Not because I hate it, but because I don't LOVE it. Because Minneapolis feels cold to me. Because I think I'm starting to feel like myself, and that's not the way this should be. I cringe at myself becoming complacent.

I'll spare you the freezing to death metaphor.

One of the few things that's really making me want to stay, is that I've met a lot of good people lately, and a couple wonderful people, people who are in and of themselves, beautiful.

This is not really meant to interest you, though no one's stopping you.

Ralph Waldo Emerson: My giant goes with me wherever I go. He's a mean fucker. He'll be there to fuck with me, to tell me I'm not enough...

Reading this is all I hope you will have done.