Its 1:38 im the am cant sleep under a depression here for a couple weeks , one of the reasons I came here in Hopes of finding friends and talking to new poeple I think im doing alright talked to some way intresting people but in the back of my head I think some people humor me because theyre too nice to tall me to fuck off...but i think thats me some times ....I work, I come home and I sleep just wannt meet some people of that some one that says Hey I llike you let me slip on theses garters for you and lets sweat til we melt together in a pool of flesh on the floor then eat out of a carton of Benn and Jerrys ...crazy may be but the mmore time goes ny the less I think it will happen I lived in this ciry for 7 months noww and nothing i go to a bar now and then try to get my face known and nothing....I think thats maybe not every one wans maybe met to live in this worls....may me...i know this is just rambling and this is the first time i did the journal thing its very theraputic.... even thought i guess not many people might not read this oh well I still LOVE the SITE and the Girls.........peolpe have been nive gonna finish my Honey nut cheeoroes and go to sleep...nite 