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***Don't read this. It is stupid***

I am listening to the Rolling Stones "Paint it Black" in a continues loop on my I-pod. Thank you Apple. So I hate to sound all gloom and what but for some reason I am. It is just me and I do not need therapy. *sings* I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes. I have...
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To the wake I move and isolate
To the sound of no control I masturbate
I remember your smell the taste eludes my lips
I feel sleep to the noise and awoke with your kiss

So things are getting hectic. I have a lot of homework and term papers to write. All of those cool little art classes are now making me do actual work....
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I am the junkie
the thing I've come to hate.
I am the fiend, who only hungers for what I ate
I am the Pac-Man eating one pill to the next
I am the painfull, yet one I have earned to bare
I am the tolerance, the ignorance, the child who will not share.
I am promotion, I am the sun, I am the fire...
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So I have not updated in a while. I am starting to realize the impact the internet has brought on ones social life and standards. I also understand the rudeness of others through electronic means. I went to Washington D.C. to see my cousin. I took a political stand while I was there and took a handfull of pills while standing in front of the...
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As I split up the hash browns and count them off. She loves me, she loves me not, she loves me, she loves me not, She loves me.. Awwww Yeahhhh... I love redheads. That is all there is to it. Movein' on. I ventured out to the outside yesterday. I looked into their worlds and seen I was wrong. I was standing on the ledge...
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THE STATE OMG I HAVE FOUND THE STATE !!!!

It even has the episode about want to shoot the presid......Oh NO ohNO no

Well against the better judgement of others I am taking piano classes. I crammed in some more credits and I am up to 17. Piano making two. I need a music class. I mean look around this mother-fucker it is time I learn how to play. Not program, not bang, but play...... I have left myself an out by not putting it down in my...
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So I just finished reading "Catcher in the Rye" a wise person once told me to read this because she said it reminded her of me. Okay since I have learned early in life that it is not wise to incriminate yourself then I will say that, "It reminded me of someone that I know." The other book she spoke of was "Bridges of Madison...
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abandon all hope ye who enter here....

So here we are. It has been a year to the day since I have been diagnosed with RSD/CRPS. Now keeping in mind I know my problems are small in comparison to full blown RSD, or say someone with HIV, or someone who is strapped to a wheelchair, or someone who is brain dead and for some reason the people who love him want to...
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