bigman316

so a little bit of what is what in the land of the big man.....and i promise this post is not full of depressing stuff. yesterday i met with my new "interim" therapist, while my regular person takes time off to be a mommy for the second time. i was very, very nervous, but my session went well, and i am hopeful that her and...
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how come it is that the only time i update my blog is when i am feeling bad???? it is not my intention to depress people, or make others feel bad also. but sometimes i just need to use this space to attempt to get something that resembles feelings out....... lately it seems i am in the habit of getting advice from people who simply...
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so i thought i would post a quick update....
i have been at home for the past week, before that i was in the hospital for five days. i suffer from severe depression, and sometimes life just throws more at me than i can handle, and well that is where i end up. think of it along the lines of your car breaks down...car breaks...
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so i was thinking today.....here we are christmas is done, people are now making their plans for new year's eve. out with one year, in with a whole new year. what will the new year hold for me?? don't know...maybe love, maybe money, maybe a new job, maybe new friends, maybe become better friends with people i have recently met. i guess we will have...
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so here i am....sunday evening. finished another week of work, work was not so bad this week. my supervisor was out sick a few days so i was in charge a couple of extra days, things went okay and i didn't burn the hospital down. i took a nap earlier today for a couple of hours, watched some football, then got up enough energy to...
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so here is the deal.... i was worrying about how i was going to find a "nice" way to end things with this girl i have been seeing. turns out she up and takes care of that for me. she went out of town for thanksgiving last week and i have not heard from her since. how do you like that??? i tried to text...
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it's raining today.... i like the rain. some people don't. they don't like the grey, the dark, the gloomy, the wet. since most of the time i feel kind of dark and gloomy i can relate to the rain. in an odd sort of way i guess rainy days make me feel a little bit better. i don't know, i know other people will complain...
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okay so here is the deal... i have been dating this girl for about a month or so. she is nice, she is super nice. she has alot of qualities some guys would die for in a girlfriend: she loves to cook, it makes her happy to pack me lunch for work, she can't understand why i spend money at the dry cleaners and not...
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okay so here i am the day after elections in america. some people are happy their candidate won, others not so happy because their candidate lost. i will say a prayer for the new president-elect when i go to bed this morning. as i feel he will need all the help he can get. i just hope he manages to do some good, and improve...
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okay.... so i hope i don't curse myself. but i had to share this: I MET A GIRL!!!!! yes, as hard as it to imagine, i just recently met someone. it has only been like a week and a half since we started talking, then seeing each other (met online on myspace) but it looks promising so far. we have ALOT to talk about, and...
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so just a quick update..... i had a doctor's appointment today that was somewhat encouraging. we are going to change some of my medication so maybe i can feel a bit better than what i do now on a daily basis. we will have to see. work this past week was not bad, the weekend was unusually calm, which is odd, but i am not...
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so i thought i would write something new...even if i don't really think i have anything to write about. i know the past several days i have been feeling quite depressed. i think there are several reasons for that; stress at work, stress in my personal life, upset with various people in my life, and probably some other stuff i can't think of. the main...
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