bigblack81

Apparently, I'm in demand as a snuggle buddy. Nothing more, mind you, but as a snuggle buddy. I say this because as I write this, I'm making arrangements for a female friend of one of my roommates to come over to the house tomorrow and snuggle with me whilst she bakes a cake. Now, the kicker in all of this is the fact that I'm her snuggle buddy elect, apparently, but she just broke up with her boyfriend AND already has someone else on the pike for next semester other then me to fill her boyfriend slot. Literally.

Now, some obvious ethical questions are forming in my mind:

- Firstly, I'm going to be giving emotional support and affection to someone who knows I want to smoke her like a christmas ham and make her the queen of my hovel. Someone who is now not occupied and is not a prospect because she fishjumped from one lad to another. This is worrisome to me. The fact that she went from engaged to boyfriended-elect so damned quick makes me a little wary to step into the box and want to lick her box.

- Secondly, I'm not sure I can stay objective about this shit when I feel as I do now. Being here on SG, posting my feelings and questions on the boards and groups has made me begin to question a lot of my ethical situations. I'm not sure I can be objective to her now when my desire for her is naked, throbbing and raw. I'd much rather not deal with it at all...but I crave both human contact and her.

- Thirdly, there's an inner slut in this girl just ready to burst at the seams. She's a little God girl and she wants to get deep dicked. I don't even have to bluster about that because when I look into her eyes and hear her voice I can hear a lot of things I'd much rather not hear in someone so untouched. I'm not sure I have the strength of character to not blemish her. She's going to make some man very happy on her wedding night and I'd feel like a fink to know I had her first. True, I'd be smiling like a fiend, but the morning after....

Now for a lot of people on this community this wouldn't be an issue: snuggle with her and if sex happens, go for it. If love happens, take that as well. Live for the moment. But this girl has played games subconsciously with a lot of people I know and she does it without much intent. She's just a natural flirt. I'm not comfortable around girls who are very open like that. I prefer a bit of card guarding in things of that nature.

Also, I know I'm thinking too much about this but I'm safety first. Mine, then everyone else's. I don't want to lose face with this girl and confess things better left unsaid because I like her as a lover and friend and she just likes me as a friend and snuggle buddy.

Bleh.

Anyway, in other news, the holiday rush has battered my ass for the first week and the days off from work are very, very useful.

- I'm writing something for the Erotica group. I'll try to get something done for that by tomorrow night.

- Writer, you're cute. Deal with it. Or more to the point, draw more cute fanart of yourself. I like looking at you in a J-Rock babydoll shirt. Hotness.

- People are asking me for money. I poor. Help!

Now off to write more fanfiction and watch Super Milk Chan on Adult Swim. I fucking love Super Milk Chan....