bergmala

got really sick, the last few days. i was fairly out of it, while cece was visiting. we got to hang out for a few hours, but most of it was spent with me wheezing, in various positions and her making fun of me. which is how it should be. you're right, we are the same. remember that, before i had to go-go-godzilla and run...
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yup yup yup, psyclon nine was last night. dave and i went, but before that we tried to meet up with matthew and his wife, to get some fried chicken. i've been waiting to go to henderson's chicken shack, almost since i moved back. we all finally had the chance to go, matthew made it to the address before us, after he got there he...
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so, i'm traveling along f.m. 1960, which is a road to where if you're not doing twenty over the speed limit, you're going to cause an accident. i'm going down 1960 in the right hand lane, with a red nissan s.u.v. in front of me. they start to slow down and i have space to get into the middle lane. so i check my mirror,...
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i'm setting myself up again. i know i am. but i'm tired of being afraid. you're supposed to confront your fears. well, my greatest fear is a short mexican girl, that i loved more than anything in the world, and hurt me worse than the sum total of all the pain i've felt in my life. i know i'm setting myself up, because she either...
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i had this dream, where you completely disregarded what i said, and showed back up. well... not really, it was just your voice, this time. and just now, popping up on some website i've never heard of, invited to by someone i haven't talked to in months, you just happen to be on it, and you still make my heart jump.

to be close to...
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imperative reaction and vnv nation was tonight. i was really annoyed by the time we arrived, and we probably missed nearly half of imperative's set. if it wasn't for some band opening last minute, we probably would've missed all of it. i got a lot of imperative reaction video, and then i got caught. so i kept the camera put up until the end of...
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internet is back up. it got hooked up yesterday, but due to some miscommunication i didn't actually have it working until today.

let's see, what have i been up to, since i made it back to houston? nothing much. i've gotten an apartment, which i like. the complex is nice and wide open, with plenty of parking. i would like covered parking, but i can't...
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everything's doing fine.

the lp guy is at ezpawn, because of our audit results. we were originally missing eleven thousand in cost, down to about five thousand, but that's still way too much. he's supposed to be the king of turnover rates. so we're worried about rocky and lance. i'm worried about rocky and lance in the first place. lance doesn't seem to get but...
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ez pawn kind of day: some skeezy black lady came up from behind me, and started to wrap her hands around me. i jumped and she got scared. she thought i was lance, and apparently she does that kind of thing to the employees there. she's definately not going to be doing that to me. she is a very nasty person, i don't even want...
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sometimes, if i lay really still and try not to breathe, i can feel my heartbeat moving my entire body.

running on bravado...

i realized today, that i can't function on four-five hours of sleep, and no food.

are you hoping for a miracle?

you ever get something that you just can't break/squeeze anything out of? but when you finall do, it's a sound like...
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disappointment always seems so close at hand. from the little things, to the big things, i'm so tired of being let down. the only thing i can think of to solve it is a cliche answer that i must start with myself. if i can't keep from letting myself down, how can i expect anyone else to?

i hear/see all these words and conversations, from...
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