berdie

People. Some fucking people. So quick to hate for no reason. People like that crack me up. Karma has a way of dealing with everything. On the darker side of this though, I know for sure I have a dark place full of rage that just wants to watch people like that burn and would even be the one to set the fire. Karma has a way of dealing with those feelings and actions too and I know this. I don't like that place in me, but it's there and all I can do is contain it. I almost made the terrible decision to just brutally beat the shit out of a woman who by all means started it and would not back down, but that doesn't make it right. I'm glad someone came and pulled her back. It was about to get ugly real. I get black out rage. It's only happened like four to five times but I felt it coming. It scared me. I was so close. My body was trembling and I felt it all going numb but getting hot and I knew the breaking point was only moments away. It's hard to explain. I hate that part of me and I want it to die.