Good weekend. 
My man FINALLY came over yesterday. 3 hours or so. Was awesome. He actually yelled at me cuz I was checking my SG msgs & he wanted to cuddle. (no sex for me yet...damn injuries).
So then he comes over today for another 3 or so hours.
I also noticed something interesting. We only fight when we cannot be together for a long time. I get bitchy & over-sensitive & he becomes antagonistic. When we see each other regularly, we never fight.
I think he might be just as affected by my absence as I am to his.
Oh & I think I figured out why he was "busy" the last few weeks. He didn't have money for gas & couldn't get here until his loan money for the semester came in. And he knew if he told me, I would buy him gas. So easier to just say he was "busy". What is it with men & their damn pride?! Lord knows I don't like asking for help, but if I need it & someone offers...hell my bff still owes me $150 from a loan I gave him so he could pay for his car insurance so he wouldn't lose his license. He couldn't pay the insurance cuz he couldn't find a job, and of course you can't get a job without transportation. I know he will pay me back when he can. To me it was more important to help keep my friend out of jail (cuz he would have driven illegally if he was forced to in order to find a job). That's what friends do. If you have the cash to help a friend in a time of need, what kind of friend are you if you don't offer help?
But ok I get it. My man has very little $ & he is self-conscious about it. (i'm not rolling in it, but until the divorce proceedings start I have a lil to spare). Admitted he is afraid to move in with me, not because of me or us, because he is afraid of depending on me & not being able to pull his weight financially.
And yet I cannot help but smile since I realized he "needs" me as much as I "need" him. We don't do well apart. lol Neither of us.
My man FINALLY came over yesterday. 3 hours or so. Was awesome. He actually yelled at me cuz I was checking my SG msgs & he wanted to cuddle. (no sex for me yet...damn injuries).
So then he comes over today for another 3 or so hours.
I also noticed something interesting. We only fight when we cannot be together for a long time. I get bitchy & over-sensitive & he becomes antagonistic. When we see each other regularly, we never fight.
I think he might be just as affected by my absence as I am to his.
Oh & I think I figured out why he was "busy" the last few weeks. He didn't have money for gas & couldn't get here until his loan money for the semester came in. And he knew if he told me, I would buy him gas. So easier to just say he was "busy". What is it with men & their damn pride?! Lord knows I don't like asking for help, but if I need it & someone offers...hell my bff still owes me $150 from a loan I gave him so he could pay for his car insurance so he wouldn't lose his license. He couldn't pay the insurance cuz he couldn't find a job, and of course you can't get a job without transportation. I know he will pay me back when he can. To me it was more important to help keep my friend out of jail (cuz he would have driven illegally if he was forced to in order to find a job). That's what friends do. If you have the cash to help a friend in a time of need, what kind of friend are you if you don't offer help?
But ok I get it. My man has very little $ & he is self-conscious about it. (i'm not rolling in it, but until the divorce proceedings start I have a lil to spare). Admitted he is afraid to move in with me, not because of me or us, because he is afraid of depending on me & not being able to pull his weight financially.
And yet I cannot help but smile since I realized he "needs" me as much as I "need" him. We don't do well apart. lol Neither of us.
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suispud1:
Pride is like that erection that lasts over four hours that you're supposed to tell your doctor about but never do. Sometimes you're glad to have it there. It's handy.
scratamus:
I quit with both my pregnancies, and just like you, all it took was the one stupid cigarette afterwards to bring me right back like i had never stopped! I quit for my kids and i intend to stay smoke free! Thanks for you comment on my blog and good luck with your quitting It is SO worth it!!!! I got over my craving by starting up a computor game that really needs concentration. I forgot about the craving really quick
It is SO worth it!!!! I got over my craving by starting up a computor game that really needs concentration. I forgot about the craving really quick