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I'm torn between the desert and the sea

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#Yuriel: Le Sigh

Sep 18, 2014
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My life is fucking shit. See, I'd elaborate on this, but that'd take weeks worth of typing (yup, it was years worth of livin'.)

You know, at one time, I used to blog on here almost nightly. Then I started a family and my daily happenings weren't just my own doing, and weren't just my own affect. They were a part of a few people's lives. I couldn't just rant about my own feelings without bringing up events that affected other people who weren't on here and thus didn't see or know about what I was talkin' about. See, I'm really big on not bringing up private stuff from folks and plastering them publicly on the net. It's a big thing for me (it's funny that I've recieved criticism saying otherwise. Irony is the bset word to describe it.) That, along with all the rest of stuff that's involved enabled those involved to utilize that against me. I'm a victim of my own god damn fuckin' creation.

I know this is severely cryptic and, well pretty much useless rantings to anyone who reads it, but that's just a way of life for me these days. I have a super strong yearning for times of past. That way of living where you just do your thing and if people didn't like it, fuck `em! You made your choices and they weren't shit when you made `em so they ain't shit when you live `em. That was the thought, at least. It was a bold and digressive way of life, and it's effects are nothing but bold and aggressive.

Sorry I have nothing positive, enlightening, or entertaining to say, but it is what it is. I bullshit noone. :D

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adelina:
Well, I'm truly happy to hear your life has improved a lot. And congratulations on your new house! Where do you live now?
Feb 17, 2015
bepps:
I live in the burnin-ass-desert, @adelina. Well, we're just comin' off the winter, which can be quite cold here, but in a few weeks it'll be mighty hot. Being a fitness freak I've typically had a very low BMI and I'm a bit of a lizard so heat doesn't bother me at all and, in fact, I love it. Also, I currently have my location set as "I'm torn between the desert and the sea." and that is very true. I'm very proud to have my boat out in the harbor which I (used to) visit and stay on frequently. I say used to because staying in the hotels really killed my finances and made it tough to have a stable car to drive the 100 miles down there to get on it. That has really affected me emotionally so, while that's sure to be fixed in a matter of days from this post, I think it's worth mentioning as it's had such a big impact on me for so long. One thing that I haven't mentioned much (for reasons this blog covers) is that, for some time (if you read my older blogs) I've had my lil girl who is absolutely perfect. That's a very bold thing to say with any real truth, and especially bold since every dad ever has said that about their child, but I can say with total conviction that I really was blessed with the closest thing you can have to a perfect human. :D
Feb 18, 2015

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