benni

i dedicate this entry to those of you who still check my journal, looking for an update. this is to all of those who take a moment out of their day to see if im still alive, and to drop me a line when i pour out my heart for the day. this entry is for you, without whom this journal would simply be a girl...

talking to herself.





i love being a girl... you know why? because i love beauty regimens. being a girl is eyeliner and thongs, pore strips and waxed legs and glitter polish on your finger nails. being a girl is lip gloss and being able to wear every color of the rainbow-- especially pink-- without getting flak from the other guys.

i love color, too. i didnt have much of my own to begin with, so ive been painting myself for awhile... eyeshadow is one of my hobbies. i collect every color i can find. i have this amazing day-glo green... its amazing how different you can look with an extra stroke of green...or pink... on your lids.

if you hadnt already guessed, i dont have much angst tonight. im too tired for angst.

its been too fucking hot. i think the heat is melting my brain. its been making it very difficult to emote. all i really want to to is drink lemonade and take a cat laden nap.

and i want to be in love.

thats not too much for a girl to ask, is it?







and i want to see my tegan.

that shouldnt be too much to ask, either.