Ok, rewind, time for old new-ness...
Didn't drink much sun night, a rum&coke and I was done drinking. No buzz for pegzama (You're like my favorite damn disease...oh yeah...) Just a kick-back time. Went to Denny's and ran into an old friend, hadn't seen in years. It was crazy. His buddies ended up being friends of the guys here, so they all came and hung...
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Didn't drink much sun night, a rum&coke and I was done drinking. No buzz for pegzama (You're like my favorite damn disease...oh yeah...) Just a kick-back time. Went to Denny's and ran into an old friend, hadn't seen in years. It was crazy. His buddies ended up being friends of the guys here, so they all came and hung...
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Something in me tells me I should listen to him. That somewhere deep in that twisted psycho-babble he manipulates me w/, there's some sort of sense, some sort of caring, wanting to lead me down the right path. Ok, so I'm pretty sure I know that, but when it hurts so bad I'm weeping, when I can't stand up straight b/c I'm so weak w/...
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Big, big night last night. Alot layed out on the table and little to no sanity to bring back. Goddess, I felt like I cried the water out of my body, but it's done some crazy stuff to me. I could only describe it as "feels like I grew up X years last night" I really don't know.
The other night is still rambling through...
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The other night is still rambling through...
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xanippi:
where are you going?
xanippi:
Newport News is closer, a day trip but still... sweet...
closer to me! bwahahaha
closer to me! bwahahaha
So, yeah... wow. *giggles nervously* Yeah, um... wow. Got my socks rawked last night... *giggles summore* Wow, I"m in love. *pauses sighs* All the way in Tennessee... *sighs again* But it was so great... I mean like "WOW" wow... *giggles summore* I'm at a loss, what do I do?? *sighs* Oh dear...
DOWNTOWN... lol... that's too funny.
"Please come visit me in Va?!?!"
DOWNTOWN... lol... that's too funny.
"Please come visit me in Va?!?!"
I got to walk around downtown with an amazing woman last night. I was awkward and babbled, and I was really sure I'd thrown any chance of seeing her again into the wind. Then she told me it was great and I about died. I'm not sure what to do or say, how I'm ever gonna do more than babble around her. Grant it, there's...
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ariarnakova171:
Hi, this is Gauge and Daisy on the my pic profile,sorry.. 
They're actresses', and this is true they are wonderfull.
If you have had read my profile i' male...
See ya
They're actresses', and this is true they are wonderfull.
If you have had read my profile i' male...
See ya
ariarnakova171:
Hey -sorry, i'm french-, what does "gf" mean ??
FINALLY got those rocky pictures up... I'm loving them like mad. Few days in my life do I feel like I look great and luckily for me THIS was one of them. I'd love to hear feedback...
Pretty uneventful day, got my jeep unpacked, got my plates, am doing mad amounts of laundry. Should have packed, still haven't done to much of that... lazed around...
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Pretty uneventful day, got my jeep unpacked, got my plates, am doing mad amounts of laundry. Should have packed, still haven't done to much of that... lazed around...
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ariarnakova171:
Being emotional is good, even if it is too much
Wow... what a crazy past couple of days. When was the last time I was here?? The 11th? What day was that?? Oh goodness...
So the costume party was saturday. WOW... it was ALL kinds of crazy... My Kagome costume came out pretty good (although alot of people thought I was a sailor scout, go figure damn japanese school girls all looking alike!) and the...
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So the costume party was saturday. WOW... it was ALL kinds of crazy... My Kagome costume came out pretty good (although alot of people thought I was a sailor scout, go figure damn japanese school girls all looking alike!) and the...
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drewember:
Aw girl I'm glad your weekend is all over with, although that party sounded like a blast! Can't wait to meet you chica..... 
My days (at least of the first portion) left in Ohio are slowly dwindling down and it's driving me crazy. I finally heard from Becky today for the first time since I took Nathan home Sunday night. She's back at school now, getting better but not completely 100% yet... and I chickened. I couldn't bring up a word about mardi gras, about us, about anything....
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I strayed from her for the first time since I've met her, last night. A mardi gras party, some mixed drinks and a beautiful roommate were all it took to knock my morals to the floor. She came over to me, on her knees and looked up at me w/ those gorgeous eyes, all dressed up in a tiny white skirt and her striped tank,...
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These last days have been a crazy roller coaster when it comes to my emotions. It seems like one day everything is going great and I'm exstatic to be home and the next everything falls down around me and I wonder if my blood just runs poison all the time...
I went to BG, I got to hug her, kiss her... all was going so...
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I went to BG, I got to hug her, kiss her... all was going so...
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"Going Under"
Now I will tell you what I've done for you
50 thousand tears I've cried
Screaming Deceiving and Bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me
(Im going under)
Don't want your hand this time I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom
I'm dying again
I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
I'm going under
Blurring and Stirring the truth and the lies
So I don't know what's real and what's not
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore
I'm dying again
I'm going under
Drowing in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
So go on and scream
Scream at me I'm so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe I can't keep going under
Tori Amos-
"A Sorta Fairytale"
on my way up north
up on the ventura
i pulled back the hood
and i was talking to you
and i knew then it would be
a life long thing
but i didn't know that we
we could break a silver lining
and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you
things you said that day
up on the 101
the girl had come undone
i tried to downplay it
with a bet about us
you said that-
you'd take it
as long as i could
i could not erase it
and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you
and i ride along side
and i rode along side
you then
and i rode along side
till you lost me there
in the open road
and i rode along side
till the honey spread
itself so thin
for me to break your bread
for me to take your word
i had to steal it
and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
a sorta fairytale
with you
i could pick back up
whenever i feel