bee

i am off to work right now then drive to AZ to see my mom.

this weekend i will have my lil bro, step dad, mom, auntie trish, my cuz eric, and my adam all under the same roof. its like a dream!

my grandma used to send my orange tic tacs in the mail...i have been crazy about them since i was a child, she always made sure to have tons of them for me. i love her. i know she is better now and free of pain she was very old. 96. i am really upset cuz i have been asked not to go to the funeral.
grrrr. so many happy and sad things. i am fine just really mad and i dont understand.

i went to rainbow last night for dinner. i figured every one thought i was a bitch or lame:o cuz i was all sadden face and wanting to cry, then when i tried to eat i was throwing it up two seconds later. i saw alexis last nigth she looked super cute, but we didnt talk much. hell i didnt talk much.
i hate crying. i am done with crying.

i am not depressed just upset.

i have been so super busy as of late due to the biz i am helping start. and i should go right now so i wont be late. its the largest shopping day of the year, my job is to go and watch people buy tons of shit for their loved ones and remember how many christmas days i never had. blah i hate christmas season, A LOT.

but the best to you and yours

-bEe