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hey everyone! i made it back into town. fhew! no its me time. time for me to take care of my shit.

i hate to bitch but i had a crappy couple of days. just with emotions and all. up and down. i have been so busy these past weeks and it starts to ride a persons state of mind. lack of sleep too many flights. lost bags(again) boss, mom, guys, girls, room mate. all the things that have been on my case.

likei hate it when (you SGs will understand what i am sayin') females you dont know want to hate on you for no reason. and they try to use SG against you, saying you are a slut and you have no respect. well i do have respect for myself and, hey get this, for OTHER people too! and i am by no means a slut! i never put down on others for how they want to live. also a number of dudes will play that same game. lame!

plus i have been opening up to a dude i really like,he makes me so f:ing HAPPY! and i get so freaked when i do that. its hard to open up to people and tell them how you feel and about your past. on both ends bad and good. i just remember my last real relationship with aon. and i try not to do the things he said were bad. like calling too much. lol. i like to chit chat, but mostly i like to listen. so i will call whom ever up and try to get them to open up. cuz then i feel ok about it when i do. ramble ramble over here. i will shut up for now.

so i am stressed but gettin' better. i am always happy with my life dont get me wrong, just these days have been hard. on top of all my lame emotions about the dude, my nana passed away and i had to move her house this weekend. i could smell her on everything.