bedheadchicken

are you back?

rats

Why do I feel like I'm sitting on the couch with a big bowl of greasy potato chips in my lap, and you're the guy on the TV screen telling me it's time I cleaned up my act? Hmmm....

oh and by the way another thing about men, i find them to have a very, very strange relationship to their own looks. just weird. often more sensitive and self concious than women - even if they don't wanna admit it.

It's funny I was thinking along the same lines about some things that happened to me in the past. So upset at the time, and now I feel nothing but "thanks for the experience". Funny also, but as I was reading I thought to myself, once this guy drove a million hours to come meet me and we spent the whole evening pressed up against a drycleaner's door while passerby shouted at us to get a room...he went home at the end of the night and I was happy I got to meet him.

The mental image of your dad (I have no idea what he looks like, but I picture a balding, older version of you) crying himself to sleep made me laugh. You are a bunch of babies, but I guess that's what keeps us coming back for more in some sick way. I think the balance here is getting back to normal now. I guess it was male PMS.

sounds like you need some obscure "modern global music".....you should try this or this!

hey of course... it's a big change in your life and situations like that often brings anxiety and panic in "normal people" too, so... just try and deal and breath and be positive. smile. think about new and exciting things. i know, sometimes hard. i'm really tired... it's 1.38 and i'm going to bed very sooon. i'm yawning like a maniac. tomorrow i'm going outta town, but not early... i miss your voice and need to fix my mic so i can skype sometime... goodnight dear and thank you so much again for the tori amos stuff. you're AWESOME.

hi hot ass. how's your weekend?

Lamentably, the less one questions, the easier life really is...at least in the short term. appreciate, in a way, the period of time in which I believed that significant political changes was possible within the Democratic Party. That seems such an antiquated notion now.

what the heck does "caliente" mean?!

What I've learned asking people questions at trial re your last question in that the more specific you are the less you're trying to hide- unless you're a total liar and are making it all up. So who knows.
Good luck post-Sopranos!! And the guy who named flys was a lazy bastard. Agreed.

two glasses of sparkling wine and that journal entry and i just may call ya up stalker-style. are you in africa or something? whassup?

what? me? smiling? you're talking crazy talk chris!

i am talking with the info nepal group. and i heard back from the gym today, and the coach wanna help me out, i can get this card and go whenever i want during this year... so it's no big pressure, and see how i do. she'll show me around someday. i need to get new work out clothes eh... but i wanna try it. because being on zoloft you're supposed to work out a lot too...

i'm glad i could help in some way... i'm just not good company when i am tired and annoyed, i feel like an ass for it too. i just.. i don't know. i need to re-do. of course. i'm not going to let the docs tell me i don't need meds. because i know i do. this is not neccesary, i need to feel normal and be able to sleep again. i deserve that.

xo.

where can i read the crazy rehab-brit news? yep i'm horrible i wanna read it. but it's weird it's out. but it's not weird to freak out. i have total understanding for anyone freaking out these days...

and yep, you're a little late with the dreams. i masturbated to that silly movie she did about three friends taking a roadtrip and singing karaoke and all. mmm.