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Well La-di-fuckin-da! It's the weekend! Holy crap that felt like the longest week of work EVER!

I'm so excited to just sit back, relax, drink some dirty martinis and let the good times roll.

Oh baby.

boo

I'm going through a strange couple of weeks. I keep thinking that it must be linked to my "cycle" because it sort of comes and goes, but all of the reading I've done make it seem like the timing is off. I'm ridiculously sex obsessed lately...

Have you ever seen that episode of Friends when its a Thanksgiving flash back, and Monica is newly thin...
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So I'm flip floping again. Don't judge. It's mean.

We'll see how long it lasts this time. Ha.

I have an appointment on Monday to see the Dean at the U of W Collegiate to get my high school transcripts and some kind of referal to an academic advisor. And I am nervous. Like sweaty nervous. It sucks. And where I am right now all...
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So it's XMas Day, I'm hanging at the boy toys place waiting for my father to come pick me up so that I can help him cook some tasty roasts. Hopefully everyone made out like bandits for this Christmas. Steve got me a 6 oz flask that's wraped in baby pink leather and has my name engraved on a silver plate on the front. Super...
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I'm sitting in the basement of my fathers house, alone. Back in a house that I swore I would never return to. I've just finished pulling and stretching the covers onto my queen-sized bed. A bed that I will sleep in alone for the first time in almost 2 years. Just 30 days ago we were talking about how maybe in the next couple of...
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It's been close to a month since my last update, so I guess I'm right on schedule. I took yesterday off to pack, as I was supposed to be moving my non-essential boxes into my dads house today and tomorrow. Now it looks like it will definitely be tomorrow, as the boy is sick with a crazy high fever (102 last I checked) and I...
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I'm so in love and over-protective-mother-instinctness right now. I brought home a tiny lovely friend on Saturday night. She (at least it appears to be a she) is furry, and squeaky, and the belle of the ball. Yes, in trying to re-live my pre teens, I went out and bought a hamster for the apartment. I would upload pictures, but I can't find a USB...
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Today, after grocery shopping and such, i felt a certain need to watch the Bill Murray classic "where the buffalo roam". Believing that I own a copy of said film on digital video disk I started to look through my collection only to find that it was not there. Now I can't clearly remember if I ever even owned it at all.

Things are so...
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CHAINSMOKER

These sweet, smouldering tidbits,
bringing my fingers to touch my lips
as I destroy them with each breath,
and destroy myself on each exhale.
The blue tinged halos that escape my mouth,
unintentionally even,
sometimes moving so slowly
I think they were made on purpose to woo me
back for more.
The kind of sashay they make as they travel through the air,
so...
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I really wish I could get high. I don't at all mean that I'm incapable of getting toasted, but I have a weird tendency to either a) have freakish panic/coughing attacks where I think I'm going to die and end up almost completely unable to move or b) have little to no feeling as a result of said smoking. It's frustrating because it's really hit...
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