becca_____

Sorry about all the song lyrics lately. It's been that kind of week. Hopefully things are evening out now.

You know what I love? When people realize that they're not the only one going through something, and that things that happen affect other people too, and then don't run away from the fucking issue leaving you to deal with it on your own without a fucking clue what's going on. At least I might love it when that happened, if it ever did.

I need direction to perfection, no no no no

Help me out

I hate hate hate sleeping alone. Mainly because I'm really bad at it.

We have one chance
One chance to get everything right
We have one chance, one chance
And if we're lucky we might

My friends, my habits, my family,
they mean so much to me
I just don't think that it's right
I've seen so many ships sail in,
just to head back out again and go off sinking

I really really need to buy windhield wiper blades, because mine are falling off and for some reason I don't really like to drive when I can't see the road or things that are on it.

Ch-ch-ch-ch-changes
(turn and face the strain)
Ch-ch-changes
Pretty soon now youre gonna get a little older
Time may change me
But I cant trace time

I tell myself I should know better. The really pathetic part is that I do know better, and it never seems to stop me. I fucking hate myself and I've got no one else to blame.

I just got off work and I've really been missing home and my mom and everything so I thought maybe I'd take a last minute trip to Chico for the night, but I called my mom and she's not even home. So now I'm not going and I'm bummed because I haven't been back in way too long, and now I have nothing to do.

The burlesque show was awesome. It would have been nice to be able to see more of it, but it was still cool. The girls are so much hotter in person. It was nice to be back in the city for a bit, too, although I wish it had been for longer.

So apparently one of my paychecks bounced and I didn't realize it so I overdrew my account a bunch of times and got charged five $23 overdraft fees. I'm in the best mood ever right now.

Also, I'm retarded. That's all.

I think I like a boy. It's been so long and I'm so nervous and hopeful and excited and I feel like this this and this . I met him awhile ago but I hung out with him tonight and I think I might like him and I really hope I do, because I've been so afraid of getting hurt that I haven't let myself...
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