Man, I am SO glad that today is over.
So glad.
On my drive to work, I thought about all of the things that I really enjoyed in life, and how I wanted to come home and write a long journal entry about it. That positivity got shot to shit, as soon as I came to work.
I was told to be in @ 10....
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So glad.
On my drive to work, I thought about all of the things that I really enjoyed in life, and how I wanted to come home and write a long journal entry about it. That positivity got shot to shit, as soon as I came to work.
I was told to be in @ 10....
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This is going to be a seriously long babbly entry.
We're not misinformed -- or misdirected.
Juliana Theory today. Not too shabby.
So it's nice to come home to work with a note from my roommate starting off with "hey sexy --" haha. And on top of that, a little nug for my smoking pleasure. She's the best.
So.
Work was a pointless piece of...
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We're not misinformed -- or misdirected.
Juliana Theory today. Not too shabby.
So it's nice to come home to work with a note from my roommate starting off with "hey sexy --" haha. And on top of that, a little nug for my smoking pleasure. She's the best.
So.
Work was a pointless piece of...
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justsayfaux:
theres always fantasy. just a little visual to help...
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tadzi:
[ 7 things you are afraid of: ]
1. tornadoes
2. drowning
3. praying manti
4. some spiders
5. my willpower breaking down and i end up letting myself care for someone
6. never breaking out of this endless cycle
7. i dunno. im really reaching here for stuff
[ 7 things that make you laugh: ]
1. most stuff, when im stoned
2. dave chappelle
3. chris rock
4. stupid people
5. W.
6. myself
7. burping
[ 7 things that make you cry: ]
1-7. i havent cried in many many years. even when ive wanted to. theres somethihng wrong with me.
[ 7 things I love: ]
1. my friends
2. my family
3. the twins
4. music
5. the beach
6. the mountains
7. getting stoned
[ 7 things I don't understand: ]
1. hypocrisy
2. other people
3. the current political atmosphere and peoples willingness to accept it
4. apathy
5. nirvana
6. love
7. hate
[ 7 things on my desk: ]
1. several blank CDs
2. several blank DVDs
3. a candle
4. empty can of slim jims
5. random trash that will eventually get thrown out
6. random paper with shit scribbled on it
7. a few guides for games
[ 7 facts about me: ]
1. i dont wear underwear
2. i smoke too many cigarettes
3. i dont smoke enough pot
4. i want children but i dont want to get married
5. i am a history buff
6. i dont want people to know me
7. it took me 15 minutes to think of the previos 6 things to say about myself
[ 7 things to do before I die: ]
1. see a solar eclipse
2. see the northern lights
3. drive up the pacific coast highway
4. be published
5. finish my goddamn screenplay
6. get my dreamhouse in the mountains in colorado
7. become one of those famous reclusive writers
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1. I am happiest when: A. im with the twins B. im at a show, stoned out of my gourd, dancing my ass off
2. I feel lonely when: im awake
3. The ideal relationship would be: unattainable
4. Favorite movie: the shawshank redemption
5. Favorite author: vonnegut
6. What makes you cry?: didnt we already go over this?
7. Introvert or extrovert?: normally introvert. unless im intoxicated
8. Do you think too much?: thats for goddamn sure
9. If you could live anywhere in the world,where would it be?: colorado
10. A famous person you would like to meet: once upon a time i would have said hunter thompson. but hes dead. so....brian wilson
11. Do you believe in organized religion?: no, but im not an atheist
12. Pro-life or pro-choice?: pro-choice
13. Are you a vegetarian?: hell no
14. Do you support the death penalty?: i used to, but not anymore
15. Do angels or demons exist?: yeah i dated a couple demons
16. What would you most like to be doing right now?: smoking a spliff at a show
17. Do you have any regrets?: i try not to regret things ive done, only things ive never done
18. Sex or love?: love
19. Favorite coffee: Mint Chocolate Chip. (word)
20. Brand of cigarettes: marlboro milds
21. Favorite scent: vanilla
22. What REALLY makes you mad?: back-stabbers
23. Favorite way to waste time: this, sitting in front of the computer
24. If you won $50,000,000 what would you do with it?: set up a few friends, move to colorado and live alone in the mountains
25. Are you a thinker or a feeler?: Both. alot of both. (me too)
26. What is your best quality?: my ability to listen, read people, and help them in any way possible (im an empath too)
27. Are you currently in love/lust?: im trying not too
28. What's the craziest thing you have ever done?: umm, no comment
29. What are your pet peeves?: in decisiveness...people who wont communicate
30. Any bad habits?: plenty
31. Do you find it hard to trust people?: i like your answer. it made me think. i am like that too. i always said its hard for me to trust people, but i think that there really just arent many people you can trust and i realize that more than most people.
32. Do you ever doubt yourself?: most of the time
33. Last book you read: likely some historical thing
34. Last thing you bought for yourself?: fuck i dont know, i never spend money
33. Bath or shower? baths, if possible
34. Favorite season: autumn.
35. Porn or erotica?: whats the difference? same shit, different wrapper
36. What is your favorite flavor?: watermellon
37. What is your favorite time of day?: about 2 AM
38. Gold or silver?: silver
39. What is the lamest pickup line someone has used on you?: what?
40. Silk sheets or cotton?: silk. i wish i had some of those
41. Any secret crushes?: god, no
42. Do you ever feel you are insane?: everyone is crazy. sanity is admitting youre crazy
43. Favorite style of music: classic rock
44. Favorite film genere: suspense
45. If you could be the opposite sex for one day,would you do it?: sure why not. id probably just masturbate the whole time. if i was hot, id go have some lesbian sex
46. What do you desire most in life?: escape
47. Do you believe in destiny?: i hope not
48. Is world peace attainable?: not unless things change. but i hope so
49. City or country?: country
1. tornadoes
2. drowning
3. praying manti
4. some spiders
5. my willpower breaking down and i end up letting myself care for someone
6. never breaking out of this endless cycle
7. i dunno. im really reaching here for stuff
[ 7 things that make you laugh: ]
1. most stuff, when im stoned
2. dave chappelle
3. chris rock
4. stupid people
5. W.
6. myself
7. burping
[ 7 things that make you cry: ]
1-7. i havent cried in many many years. even when ive wanted to. theres somethihng wrong with me.
[ 7 things I love: ]
1. my friends
2. my family
3. the twins
4. music
5. the beach
6. the mountains
7. getting stoned
[ 7 things I don't understand: ]
1. hypocrisy
2. other people
3. the current political atmosphere and peoples willingness to accept it
4. apathy
5. nirvana
6. love
7. hate
[ 7 things on my desk: ]
1. several blank CDs
2. several blank DVDs
3. a candle
4. empty can of slim jims
5. random trash that will eventually get thrown out
6. random paper with shit scribbled on it
7. a few guides for games
[ 7 facts about me: ]
1. i dont wear underwear
2. i smoke too many cigarettes
3. i dont smoke enough pot
4. i want children but i dont want to get married
5. i am a history buff
6. i dont want people to know me
7. it took me 15 minutes to think of the previos 6 things to say about myself
[ 7 things to do before I die: ]
1. see a solar eclipse
2. see the northern lights
3. drive up the pacific coast highway
4. be published
5. finish my goddamn screenplay
6. get my dreamhouse in the mountains in colorado
7. become one of those famous reclusive writers
---
1. I am happiest when: A. im with the twins B. im at a show, stoned out of my gourd, dancing my ass off
2. I feel lonely when: im awake
3. The ideal relationship would be: unattainable
4. Favorite movie: the shawshank redemption
5. Favorite author: vonnegut
6. What makes you cry?: didnt we already go over this?
7. Introvert or extrovert?: normally introvert. unless im intoxicated
8. Do you think too much?: thats for goddamn sure
9. If you could live anywhere in the world,where would it be?: colorado
10. A famous person you would like to meet: once upon a time i would have said hunter thompson. but hes dead. so....brian wilson
11. Do you believe in organized religion?: no, but im not an atheist
12. Pro-life or pro-choice?: pro-choice
13. Are you a vegetarian?: hell no
14. Do you support the death penalty?: i used to, but not anymore
15. Do angels or demons exist?: yeah i dated a couple demons
16. What would you most like to be doing right now?: smoking a spliff at a show
17. Do you have any regrets?: i try not to regret things ive done, only things ive never done
18. Sex or love?: love
19. Favorite coffee: Mint Chocolate Chip. (word)
20. Brand of cigarettes: marlboro milds
21. Favorite scent: vanilla
22. What REALLY makes you mad?: back-stabbers
23. Favorite way to waste time: this, sitting in front of the computer
24. If you won $50,000,000 what would you do with it?: set up a few friends, move to colorado and live alone in the mountains
25. Are you a thinker or a feeler?: Both. alot of both. (me too)
26. What is your best quality?: my ability to listen, read people, and help them in any way possible (im an empath too)
27. Are you currently in love/lust?: im trying not too
28. What's the craziest thing you have ever done?: umm, no comment
29. What are your pet peeves?: in decisiveness...people who wont communicate
30. Any bad habits?: plenty
31. Do you find it hard to trust people?: i like your answer. it made me think. i am like that too. i always said its hard for me to trust people, but i think that there really just arent many people you can trust and i realize that more than most people.
32. Do you ever doubt yourself?: most of the time
33. Last book you read: likely some historical thing
34. Last thing you bought for yourself?: fuck i dont know, i never spend money
33. Bath or shower? baths, if possible
34. Favorite season: autumn.
35. Porn or erotica?: whats the difference? same shit, different wrapper
36. What is your favorite flavor?: watermellon
37. What is your favorite time of day?: about 2 AM
38. Gold or silver?: silver
39. What is the lamest pickup line someone has used on you?: what?
40. Silk sheets or cotton?: silk. i wish i had some of those
41. Any secret crushes?: god, no
42. Do you ever feel you are insane?: everyone is crazy. sanity is admitting youre crazy
43. Favorite style of music: classic rock
44. Favorite film genere: suspense
45. If you could be the opposite sex for one day,would you do it?: sure why not. id probably just masturbate the whole time. if i was hot, id go have some lesbian sex
46. What do you desire most in life?: escape
47. Do you believe in destiny?: i hope not
48. Is world peace attainable?: not unless things change. but i hope so
49. City or country?: country
justsayfaux:
awww... your hair is cute.
Time takes its toll on us -- this changes everything....
I can't get enough of this Circa Survive CD.
Last night sucked.
There was nothing going on, so we drove around and then came back here and sat and smoked like we always do. .I think Tara was really disappointed, but I knew there would be nothing going on.. Thursday we're going to go...
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I can't get enough of this Circa Survive CD.
Last night sucked.
There was nothing going on, so we drove around and then came back here and sat and smoked like we always do. .I think Tara was really disappointed, but I knew there would be nothing going on.. Thursday we're going to go...
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fragile21:
hey! long time, right? your hair looks really good like that. 
it's really hot here too...so i went swimming. i haven't gone in so long. i almost forgot how much i like it.
it's really hot here too...so i went swimming. i haven't gone in so long. i almost forgot how much i like it.
"what made you so scared?
maybe you're mistaken for someone who cares
if you remember (remember)
I've been trying to get back to the center
but I'm sure
it's not like it was before"
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I bought the Circa Survive Cd "Juturna" yesterday. It's really fucking good. A friend of mine was really into them, so I figured I'd give it a shot. Nice stuff....
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maybe you're mistaken for someone who cares
if you remember (remember)
I've been trying to get back to the center
but I'm sure
it's not like it was before"
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I bought the Circa Survive Cd "Juturna" yesterday. It's really fucking good. A friend of mine was really into them, so I figured I'd give it a shot. Nice stuff....
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helllloo.
this week has felt never-ending.
i worked tues double thursday, friday, double sat, and double sun. ughhhh. but the cash is kinda coming in? at least i left with over 100$ today. and i'm putting 200$ in the bank tomorrow. werd.
last nite i did NOT want to go out bkz i was EXHAUSTED from not sleeping at all the nite before, and smoking...
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this week has felt never-ending.
i worked tues double thursday, friday, double sat, and double sun. ughhhh. but the cash is kinda coming in? at least i left with over 100$ today. and i'm putting 200$ in the bank tomorrow. werd.
last nite i did NOT want to go out bkz i was EXHAUSTED from not sleeping at all the nite before, and smoking...
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clover:
thank you.
great pics
great pics
so the blood-letting this afternoon wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be. they took about 7 vials. my arm hurts like whoa but I'll live. I should have the results back by Friday. I'm nervous. These results could force me to have to make HUGE changes in my life. I don't know if I'm ready for that...
I called out of work tonite because...
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I called out of work tonite because...
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tadzi:
smoking after having blood drawn...THAT is hardcore
i'm about to go get the life sucked out of me. literally. 
i have 13 blood tests to get, and one urine sample. i've been fasting. i'm hungry. my head hurts. and i'm tired.
but at least i think i got my work shift covered for tonite, which is fantastic, bkz i cant stand another 30$ nite...and i have to work a double tomorrow. and...
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i have 13 blood tests to get, and one urine sample. i've been fasting. i'm hungry. my head hurts. and i'm tired.
but at least i think i got my work shift covered for tonite, which is fantastic, bkz i cant stand another 30$ nite...and i have to work a double tomorrow. and...
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tadzi:
i wish i could do that for you....the blood tests i mean. ive had blood drawn from me so many times, its nothing to me at this point.
After all these years .... Forget about the troubled times.
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Soon -- it'll all come together.
Soon, everything will finally make sense. But not soon enough.
In fact, it might already be too late....
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beach tomorrow. sweet dreams.</3
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Soon -- it'll all come together.
Soon, everything will finally make sense. But not soon enough.
In fact, it might already be too late....
- - - -
beach tomorrow. sweet dreams.</3
tadzi:
send me some of your optimism...i need it.
i'm a true believer in karma.
karma's a mother fucker : what goes around comes around, bitch!
you'll get yours....
& i'm sure i'll get mine too. in due time. this whole facade of a life that i've built around myself lately has got to come crashing down eventually.
so why was i a fucking MESS last nite, crying hysterically @ 4 AM and then...
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karma's a mother fucker : what goes around comes around, bitch!
you'll get yours....
& i'm sure i'll get mine too. in due time. this whole facade of a life that i've built around myself lately has got to come crashing down eventually.
so why was i a fucking MESS last nite, crying hysterically @ 4 AM and then...
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lydia:
I'm a VERY strong believer in karma.
article10:
karma definately happens.
Sorry to hear about work...that really sucks.