shhhh.
I'm just going through the motions now.
I want my family to be back here. A6 is incomplete, for now.
These past few weeks have been so hard on me especially without my girls here.
I just have these blank walls staring back at me.
You're worried about me -- well I'm worried about me too.
I hate feeling this way, and sometimes it's so overwhelming that it feels like it's never going to end.
I know it will.
But when?
eat, sleep, work endless hours...write in my journal and smoke my cloves with the songs with the sad lyrics that I've come to love and think of as my athems blare in the background. think think think. my brain is constantly on over-drive.
I've barely been toking at all, which is good...but my thoughts are so clear. Sometimes they're so clear, they hurt.
working a double tomorrow. it's just another day.
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I'm just going through the motions now.
I want my family to be back here. A6 is incomplete, for now.
These past few weeks have been so hard on me especially without my girls here.
I just have these blank walls staring back at me.
You're worried about me -- well I'm worried about me too.
I hate feeling this way, and sometimes it's so overwhelming that it feels like it's never going to end.
I know it will.
But when?
eat, sleep, work endless hours...write in my journal and smoke my cloves with the songs with the sad lyrics that I've come to love and think of as my athems blare in the background. think think think. my brain is constantly on over-drive.
I've barely been toking at all, which is good...but my thoughts are so clear. Sometimes they're so clear, they hurt.
working a double tomorrow. it's just another day.
</3
Maybe you need to blare some different music. I tell my ex that she wouldn't be so miserable if she didn't listen to sad bastard crap all the time. Music is such a mood modifier.
Keep off the reefer. You'll feel better too.