Laziest day ever...Kind of. I woke up and had a mini panic attack, and decided to not get out of bed until 2 PM. Still sitting in my underwear, like I was last night. Nothing wrong with that though. I did laundry...including my sheets. AND I cleaned out the refridge. fucking DISGUSTING. there was like this gross red liquid that had coagulated at the very bottom. 
the trash still needs to be taken out. we're paying someone for that shit.
Having your own place is tough shit sometimes. Heh.
So I got a few things crossed off my to-do list. I still have a pile of money sitting in front of me that needs to be deposited, before it is all SPENT. I have to figure school books and shit into the configuration for the budget this month. durrh. Someone at work wants to switch some shifts with me. He wants to work mon, wed, and fri. And I'm thinking about giving him my wed/fri shifts and taking his sunday double...then I had the thought that after everyone goes back to school...they'll need two friday servers..so i could keep my fri shift and work thurs, fri, sat double and sunday double. that'd give me some serious cash. And the way that my school schedule is looking so far, I won't have ANY classes on mon/wed...so that work schedule could work out pretty good. Sure, I'll be tired...but with no classes on Monday, I'd be able to sleep in. Working sat and sun double during the school year would be SICK money. So I have to think about that...I rerally need to save alot this year.
I have to get my stitches out tomorrow. Fun.
I really feel my anxiety levels with life in general are just continuously rising. Not healthy.
I've been listening to the same 2 CD's for 3 days straight: Gorillaz and Armor for Sleep. it's just a constant rotation. But both seem fitting for the mood lately.
It's raining outside
there's a stormfront on my back
trying to keep
trying to keep me
away from you.
You never realize how loneliness can completely break you down, until you experience it day after day...It's really hard for me to have no one around me, especially now. It's hard to not be around my parents, and my best friends, and everyone I'm used to having around me. It just makes me want to crawl into my bed and not get up until someone comes home to hang out with me. I'm just going through the motions now.
Kris is here tonight tho, and hopefully Ashley will come back too. We always laugh so much when the three of us are together...I think it'll be a very interesting senior year.
Is it as easy for you to turn it off as it is for you to turn it on?
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the trash still needs to be taken out. we're paying someone for that shit.
Having your own place is tough shit sometimes. Heh.
So I got a few things crossed off my to-do list. I still have a pile of money sitting in front of me that needs to be deposited, before it is all SPENT. I have to figure school books and shit into the configuration for the budget this month. durrh. Someone at work wants to switch some shifts with me. He wants to work mon, wed, and fri. And I'm thinking about giving him my wed/fri shifts and taking his sunday double...then I had the thought that after everyone goes back to school...they'll need two friday servers..so i could keep my fri shift and work thurs, fri, sat double and sunday double. that'd give me some serious cash. And the way that my school schedule is looking so far, I won't have ANY classes on mon/wed...so that work schedule could work out pretty good. Sure, I'll be tired...but with no classes on Monday, I'd be able to sleep in. Working sat and sun double during the school year would be SICK money. So I have to think about that...I rerally need to save alot this year.
I have to get my stitches out tomorrow. Fun.
I really feel my anxiety levels with life in general are just continuously rising. Not healthy.
I've been listening to the same 2 CD's for 3 days straight: Gorillaz and Armor for Sleep. it's just a constant rotation. But both seem fitting for the mood lately.
It's raining outside
there's a stormfront on my back
trying to keep
trying to keep me
away from you.
You never realize how loneliness can completely break you down, until you experience it day after day...It's really hard for me to have no one around me, especially now. It's hard to not be around my parents, and my best friends, and everyone I'm used to having around me. It just makes me want to crawl into my bed and not get up until someone comes home to hang out with me. I'm just going through the motions now.
Kris is here tonight tho, and hopefully Ashley will come back too. We always laugh so much when the three of us are together...I think it'll be a very interesting senior year.
Is it as easy for you to turn it off as it is for you to turn it on?
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