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beautifulxalone

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Sunday Aug 14, 2005

Aug 14, 2005
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I just spent 10 minutes trying to get a steaming hot lightbulb unscrewed so I could take the lampshade off the lamp, because it's just too damn dark in my room sometimes. the new red curtains give it an ominous darkness even when it's the middle of a sunny afternoon. heh. Heh!*#$
Now it's well lit in here, and the light is shining off of the white ass bare wall opposite of me right now. I stripped off the collage of pictures I had on there, and I'm going to start anew. Time for a change I guess. There were alot of pix of tara up there that I didn't want..and scraps of song lyrics that just didn't apply anymore. New year, new atmosphere..but some things will never change.

I don't know why I've been so gung-ho lately about writing in here..but it's late, and this is my nature I guess. Just let it flow.

It's funny how songs that you've listened to time and time again, hold a newer meaning when you're belting out the lyrics and you can actually understand the meaning behind them, and it's as if you're listening to the song for the first time ever. It's a whole new appreciation for liking it. I felt like that so many times this morning when driving back from Kerry's.

The pain in my jaw is getting worse and worse day by day...and I don't want to take anymore percocets. They made me itchy and my stomach hurt. puke

Thank god for maryjane..because I'd be wasting away to nothing if I weren't smoking. That's the only time that it doesn't hurt to eat.
I hostessed at work tonight, and apparently I wasn't appropriately dressed. My flip flops did not fly with Larry. Yet all the other girls wear open toed, high heeled, open backed sandles. Hah. I was busting my ass, helping to turn over tables and running to pick up the phone...you don't see them doing that in their fucking heels huh? That's the last time I do you a favor, asshole. Oh yeah, I'm feeling alot better, thanks for asking. GAH.

My dad's birthday is tomorrow.

It's been storming, thundering and lightening since 9. I hope this heat breaks.
I was going to go to the beach tomorrow...but I feel like I have so much more else to do. And don't feel like driving. I wish the beach was in my backyard. I wish I could just snap my fingers and be wherever I wanted to be.

If you could be anywhere in the world right now...where would you go?






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I have my own routine now
I'm keeping busy in my own way
I'm learning ways to not feel
Like I'm down here forever

I hear your footsteps
Move the floorboards above my head
I hope you know that I'm down here
Just for you

I sang a song to you through the floor
To reach you upstairs
I thought I heard you call out for more
I know that's crazy
I'm pretty sure that I'm lost again
It won't get through to you
I won't get through
I think I won't get through ....






sweetest of dreams tonight. kiss



VIEW 5 of 5 COMMENTS
mpphoto:
summer is slowly winding down...

smile
Aug 15, 2005
chai:
kiss love kiss love kiss thanks...!!!

thanks also for the holdiay wishes... i just phoned with my sister and realitzed that i dont drive on wednesday, i drive on friday... grrr.. how could happen something like this... smile

kiss
Aug 15, 2005

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