beautifulxalone

and tonite,
i'm drowning myself in wine the color of my hair.
everything has turned to SHIT.
everyday it's something different.
and i'm the only one to blame.
i go to bed crying and wake up screaming from nightmares.




i wish i knew what self control was
i wish i knew how to love and not just break hearts.


i wish i wish i wish.


i went home today and i was home for a few ho urs, and as i'm walking out the door, stuff in hand, my dad says "So...." like he's trying to start a convo with me. and then he goes "Nevermind, just go." I told him that i was home for a few hours and that if he wanted to talk, he should have talked to me. but he said "you were busy."


makes me sad.

everything makes me sad.



make me happy. please.


i miss you.







PS. i'm more lonely than i've ever been.