beautifulxalone

i went thru a series of very distinct and different emotions this weekend, some good, and some horrible.

yesterday was something that i never experienced in my life. i had never felt more peaceful and alone in my entire life. i documented everything that i was feeling without inhibition, and i think my paper on "the meaning of life" will be really well written.

i'm glad i did that with ashley bkz i think we connect on alot of levels that people dont really see...but we do. i never thought we'd end up having so much in common. but she finishes my sentences. i like that.

i decided that this week i'm going to de-tox a bit. i dont know if this is the best particular week to do something like that, but i need to. i'm so fucking burnt out, i walk around in a haze all the time, and i dont like that. i need exercise, i need fresh air, i need nourishment, i need good sleep that's not drug/alcohol induced. i need to take advantage of the fact that i dont have anything due and study and read.

wow i just remembered that it's 4/20 on wednesday. i'm a retard.

well whatever. i'm still going to do my thing for a few days bkz i think it'll make me feel alot better. and besides, i'm fucking broke as a joke. those few weeks of me going out to eat like 45 times a day really hurt my pocket. and well, so did my shopping spree @ best buy.


time for class...happy monday.