Today was a loooooooong day. 11.5 hours at work. Coming home to a hysterical roommate. I think it's meltdown week, hmm?
"Mercury must be retrograde" -- that is my roommate's explanation
I did have a good night at work although it was long, because I got to hang out with my supervisor and I learned ALOT and met some of the great new clients of mine. I think this is going to be a good place for me. *fingers crossed*
There have been a lot of similar themes coming up this week between different people in my life...and it's really hard to sit back and "watch" other people as they're suffering or whatever, and feeling fucking helpless about it.. I've been there before, I know that there is nothing that I can say or do to make any of it get any better, or feel any better...and that is the part that makes me feel helpless, because I want to do something. I would do anything to take the pain away. I'm not naive though. I know it takes time.
It's interesting how experiences from your past can creep up on you and completely overwhelm you again when other people are going thru similar situations. I can relate, and I don't want to relate, bkz thinking about that situation brings pain...and then I really know how much it fucking kills to be in that situation. To feel like the person that you cared about for so long didn't give two fucks about you, and to have it pretty much confirmed and thrown in your face. Hence the hysterical roommate tonight. Hence why we've needed to take "breathing room" this week. And it doesn't even fucking matter bkz I'm still thinking about him. But duh, that's inevitable. I just decided that I'm going to give up the constant internal battle with myself, and let it ride. Let it happen the way it was meant to happen. If it ends up being a good thing, well that'll be fucking awesome. It has great potential, at least I think so. If it ends up making me the fool in the end, well then...I'm the fool. Wouldn't be the first time...probably wouldn't be the last either.
In other news, I have a three day weekend this weekend
And a date night on Saturday. I love date nights.
I also got a haircut today, and it's short, and fuzzy, and I love it. Pictures to come.
It needs to be dyed tomorrow though bkz my natural hair color is turning out to look more like silver/greyish, and yuck.
Maybe a lighter blonde. Maybe red...maybe strawberry blonde? I also thought about going back to dark dark dark. But not for the summer. Anyway.
I'm happy to be able to sleep in tomorrow.
He traces her face with an index fingertip full of hate
Love 'em and leave 'em
Love'em or they leave you
Some see the glow but some glow is see through
As life leaves her body he screams me too
All he ever wanted was to teach you to reach you
xox.
"Mercury must be retrograde" -- that is my roommate's explanation
I did have a good night at work although it was long, because I got to hang out with my supervisor and I learned ALOT and met some of the great new clients of mine. I think this is going to be a good place for me. *fingers crossed*
There have been a lot of similar themes coming up this week between different people in my life...and it's really hard to sit back and "watch" other people as they're suffering or whatever, and feeling fucking helpless about it.. I've been there before, I know that there is nothing that I can say or do to make any of it get any better, or feel any better...and that is the part that makes me feel helpless, because I want to do something. I would do anything to take the pain away. I'm not naive though. I know it takes time.
It's interesting how experiences from your past can creep up on you and completely overwhelm you again when other people are going thru similar situations. I can relate, and I don't want to relate, bkz thinking about that situation brings pain...and then I really know how much it fucking kills to be in that situation. To feel like the person that you cared about for so long didn't give two fucks about you, and to have it pretty much confirmed and thrown in your face. Hence the hysterical roommate tonight. Hence why we've needed to take "breathing room" this week. And it doesn't even fucking matter bkz I'm still thinking about him. But duh, that's inevitable. I just decided that I'm going to give up the constant internal battle with myself, and let it ride. Let it happen the way it was meant to happen. If it ends up being a good thing, well that'll be fucking awesome. It has great potential, at least I think so. If it ends up making me the fool in the end, well then...I'm the fool. Wouldn't be the first time...probably wouldn't be the last either.
In other news, I have a three day weekend this weekend
And a date night on Saturday. I love date nights.
I also got a haircut today, and it's short, and fuzzy, and I love it. Pictures to come.
It needs to be dyed tomorrow though bkz my natural hair color is turning out to look more like silver/greyish, and yuck.
Maybe a lighter blonde. Maybe red...maybe strawberry blonde? I also thought about going back to dark dark dark. But not for the summer. Anyway.I'm happy to be able to sleep in tomorrow.
He traces her face with an index fingertip full of hate
Love 'em and leave 'em
Love'em or they leave you
Some see the glow but some glow is see through
As life leaves her body he screams me too
All he ever wanted was to teach you to reach you
xox.
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Fixed the door yesterday. Still thinking about the girl, but not as much. Just really sucks. Is this when I'm supposed to give chase or something?
That's sweet that the boy was so, for lack of a better term, "proud" and showing you off. Must be nice to be cared about that much. Just enjoy it! Going to live vicariously through your romantic exploits!
Being on the right track in a complicated situation is a good start for sure. Something is bound to happen. I've been told I'm a hopeless romantic, so keep filling me in with details.