Sunday May 10, 2009

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Oh man. Insomnia, I loathe you.

I've been in a funky mood all day. I believe that it is due to my depressing work atmosphere (literally), and the SURGE of hormones from new BCP. heh. Hormones suck.
I think it also had to do with the fact that it was Mother's Day, and I remembered while in the shower that I was not favoring my mother too fondly last year on Mother's Day either...it's weird when you cry in the shower, bkz you know you're crying but can't exactly feel the tears rolling down your cheeks because of the water from the shower head. Anyway.

I would like to be out of this funk, and sleeping...but I won't try to fight it because the more I do...the more it consuuuumes me. My body will sleep when it's ready. And I thought it was ready about a half hour ago, but then my mouth was salivating because I was craving the roasted red pepper hummus I bought today, so I got out of bed to devour that and now I'm pleased. Waking up ravenous is the worst. Again, I blame you, hormones. Tomorrow is Monday, the start of everyone normal person's work week...and I'm anxious to hear back from my new place of employment about the status of my employment, and I am also anxious to hear from my current place of employment because judging by the shifts that I'm SUPPOSED to work this week -- I have a feeling I'll be getting called out quite a bit. Hmph. I've been spring cleaning lately, and I will continue to do that for the rest of the week. My best friend walked into my room the other day and saw the boxes of old journals and pictures and piles of trash and simply said "Spring cleaning your life huh?" She got it.

A few things to look forward to this week: LIVE ATMOSPHERE ON WEDNESDAY. The thought of that sends tingles thru my body. I can't wait to see them live again, and I can't wait to see the inside of the new HOB. And I'm excited that the show is in my price range, although not much of anything really qualifies as that anymore nowadays. I also have a weekend day OFF this weekend, which will be the first of many many weeks and excites the shit out of me. The thought of going to work lately literally either brings me to tears or makes me want to throw up. Not a good feeling.

I've been writing and writing and writing. It's niiiice. I found this random survey on my old LJ, which you now have the pleasure of reading.

SPOILERS! (Click to view)


AUTOBIOGRAPHY -

Prologue-
1. Who took your profile picture? I did.
2. Exactly what are you wearing right now? grey sweats, comfy cashmere socks, purple and grey striped thermal and glasses, with the usual rings adorning my fingers.
3. What is your current problem? I'd say money is at the top of the list...and my own old random insecurities that have recently been surfacing and suffocating me.
4. What makes you most happy? the prospects of a new job, the future, summertime, good music, laughing, and spending time with a certain lovely booooy.
5. What's the name of the song that you're listening to? "red man" by Kenna.

________________________________________________________Chapter 1:

1. Nickname? I have a million. Chris, Chrissie, Tinie, Dorny, Tiny, etc.
2. Eye color? blue. ocean colored I've been told.
3. Hair color? It's almost blonde again!
4. Height? 5'4"
________________________________________________________ Chapter 2:

1. Do you live with your parent(s)? nah.
2. Do you get along with your parent(s)? sometimes.
3. Are your parents chill? uhmm that is not the adjective I'd use to describe them!
4. Do you have any Siblings? Yes, and she is the most awesome individual ever.

________________________________________________________ Chapter 3:

FAVORITE:
1. Ice Cream? Turkey Hill's mint chocolate chip. Nothing compares to that, ever.
2. Season? Autumn.
3. Book? Hard to say. I have a lot of favorites.
4. Color? Blue. Black. Red.
5. Food? mmmm. also hard to say. Right now, hummus and any new recipe Kerry and I make for dinner, seriously they always turn out soooo yummy.
6. Drink? green tea. coffee. riesling. blue moooon.
9. Pen color? blue.
10. Store? hmmm. I'm pretty partial to Target. I also enjoy Mineralistic on South St.
11. Hero? Dr. Suler.

__________________________________________________________ Chapter 4:

DO YOU
1. Write on your hand: all the time. I have some scribbles on it currently.
2. Call people back? Ehhh. If it's absolutely necessary. Not a phone person.
3. Believe in love? Yes.
4. Sleep on a certain side of the bed? yeah, I like to sleep on the outside. *ahem*

___________________________________________________________ Chapter 5:

Have you ?
1. Kissed Someone in the past 24 hours? Unfortunately no. Do something about that.
2. If so, where? hmph.
3. Had PHYSICAL therapy? Yeah, and it sucked.
4. Gotten surgery? Yes.
5. Taken painkillers? Mhmm.
6. Overdosed on pain killers? No.
7. Been stung by a bee? yes, bees suck.
8. Threw up in a doctors office: haha. no. Random question.

___________________________________________________________ Chapter 6:

Who/what was the last

3. Thing you touched? I'm typing aren't I?
4. Thing you said? "FUCK!" bkz I banged my knee on the desk :|
7. Person you hugged? Kerry.
8. Person you talked to on the phone? Katie.
11. Last book you read? I'm currently reading "A Million Little Pieces"
12. Last time you cleaned your room? It's a slow moving process, but I've been working on it since Wednesday.
13. Last time you talked to someone you liked? Not too long ago.

________________________________________________________Chapter 7:

1. Where was the first time you ever kissed the last person you liked? Here. In my bed. :]
2. What's the most exciting thing that happened to you today? The end of my incredibly boring shift @ work.
3. How many best friends do you have? 4?
4. Would you rather get up early or sleep in? sleeeeeep in, unless I'm doing something fun that day.
5. What piercings do you want? I'm over the piercing phase in my life...I have the only one I want.
6. Does the thought of marriage scare you? Uhm yes. probably one of my more irrational fears.
7. What would you like to change about your life right now? I would like to feel accomplished, and not have to worry about money anymore. I want certainty and clarity.
8. Would you rather smile over a lie or cry over the truth? The truth hurts, but I hate liars.
9. Whats on your bedroom floor? a yoga mat, shoes, books, my purse, blah blah blah.
10. Who was the last person you got into an argument with? Hmm...can't say really. My mom probably.
11. Do you trust people easily? Negative.
12. If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move to? Someplace warm. California, Virginia Beach, or somewhere totally not warm, but awesome and peaceful...like Vermont.
13. Do you think you're good looking? I have my moments.
14. Could you go a day without eating? Yeah, I'm sure I've done it before too, but I get cranky when I'm hungry.
15. How much do looks matter to you? Depends on whose looks you're talking about. But I'm not a shallow person.
16. How do you feel about P.D.A.? There is a time and a place, but I generally like it, to some extent.
17. When was the last time you had your hair cut? Ugh...sensitive subject. The "stylist" butchered it. :/
18. Would you rather be mad or sad? Mad. It's a more productive emotion.
19. Does it take a lot to make you cry? Not usually, but I'm working on that.
20. What's the worst car accident you've ever been in? probably when my car was sent plummeting down an embankment almost into oncoming traffic.
21. Are you tight with your mommy? ....not particularly.
22. How do you like your steak cooked? Medium.
23. Do you tell your parents everything? Absolutely not. They're my parents! I tell my journal everything. tongue
24. Would you rather be a bird or a fish? a fish!
25. Name one fear you have: abandonment.

halfjack:
awww. sounds like someone needs a snack

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