hey it's been awhile you ho's.
here's a recap:
+ i thought i was failing everything in school, but i got an 83 on my spanish test, and an A on my senior sem test. and i failed the other test i took last week, but my teacher told me it was going to be the hardest test i've ever taken, so i expected the failure
+ i've learned how to function properly with only 4 hours of sleep...8 hours of sleep is rare around here.
+ i've been drinking too much. but what else is new? i'm young and having fun.
+ i saw my exboyfriend leave the pub with another girl on monday night. i spent the rest of the time there biting my lip to keep from crying, and when we finally got out of there, i sobbed the whole way home. it's getting hard to fight these feelings.
+ my roommate and i made a sick R&B remix of all these old songs from around 1998...babyface, 112, brian mcknight...you know you love that shit!! haha...
+ my mother was horribly condescending to me on monday when i went home, and made me cry. she was telling me that i need to learn some responsibility. what the FUCK. she needs to fucking look around her...bkz i'm one of the most responsible 21 year olds that i know. oh i guess going to school full-time, and having an internship at a very emotionally draining shelter 8 hours a week, and working part time AND supporting myself, and taking care of a house and a cat isn't enough responsibility. what the fuck does she expect from me? i guess it'll never ever be good enough for her. it's fine for a mother to have high expectations for her children, but the least she could do is recognize all of the hard work i do. I'm trying damnit. When will it ever be enough?
+ I'm sick as a fucking dog.
This is my body's way of telling me that it's had enough, AND i have my period. but it's fine.
+ I'm going to attempt to nap.
What's good with everyone?
xox.
here's a recap:
+ i thought i was failing everything in school, but i got an 83 on my spanish test, and an A on my senior sem test. and i failed the other test i took last week, but my teacher told me it was going to be the hardest test i've ever taken, so i expected the failure
+ i've learned how to function properly with only 4 hours of sleep...8 hours of sleep is rare around here.
+ i've been drinking too much. but what else is new? i'm young and having fun.
+ i saw my exboyfriend leave the pub with another girl on monday night. i spent the rest of the time there biting my lip to keep from crying, and when we finally got out of there, i sobbed the whole way home. it's getting hard to fight these feelings.
+ my roommate and i made a sick R&B remix of all these old songs from around 1998...babyface, 112, brian mcknight...you know you love that shit!! haha...
+ my mother was horribly condescending to me on monday when i went home, and made me cry. she was telling me that i need to learn some responsibility. what the FUCK. she needs to fucking look around her...bkz i'm one of the most responsible 21 year olds that i know. oh i guess going to school full-time, and having an internship at a very emotionally draining shelter 8 hours a week, and working part time AND supporting myself, and taking care of a house and a cat isn't enough responsibility. what the fuck does she expect from me? i guess it'll never ever be good enough for her. it's fine for a mother to have high expectations for her children, but the least she could do is recognize all of the hard work i do. I'm trying damnit. When will it ever be enough?
+ I'm sick as a fucking dog.
This is my body's way of telling me that it's had enough, AND i have my period. but it's fine.
+ I'm going to attempt to nap.
What's good with everyone?
xox.
twotoner:
Feel better darlin'. It'll be okay...
