beatrice

things have gotten a little crappier since my last entry, though nothing i want to go into too much detail about. it's boy trouble of course, specifically switters trouble. i think it will pass though. i hope at least.
i was only able to run 4 of the 6 attemptedmiles yesterday. the banana i had for breakfast was bouncing around in my stomach making me really naseous. i got a bad cramp too. still, i think i could have pushed myself a little harder than i did. next week for sure.
i've been weaning myself off caffeine and it sucks. i don't get headaches or grouchy or anything, it's just so hard to wake up.
there are so many trips i want to take in the coming months, i don't know where i'll find the funds or the time. here's what i want to do:
august: tulsa to see switters
september: amsterdam or france
october: atlanta for niece's birthday
november: tulsa (if i don't get to go in august)
december: atlanta/mississippi for christmas with family
that's a lot of flying. and plane tickets are never cheap, especially to a foreign country. there's a cheap one now for the august trip to tulsa, it's still $250 though. i need to decide soon before it's gone. though maybe i should just stay away, it's hard to know what to do.