beatrice

so, i've been thinking too much about the sucky things in my life lately. i get bogged down, stuck on one line of negative thought. and it's just pointless. my life is *not* that bad. the other day at work a woman asked me where the cancer center was and i had no idea. she asked a couple of times, i pointed her in the direction of the information desk and said they could probably help her, but you know, i was a little annoyed--stuck in my own head trying to get on with my day. but as soon as i walked off i closed my eyes, what an asshole i just was. so caught up in my own menial problems. this woman has cancer, or is there for someone who does. how lucky am i that i'm healthy, that my family is healthy. and i couldn't spare a moment to help this woman find where she needed to go. i felt terrible.
anyway, to refocus my mind, so i'm not such a jerk, here is my list of how wonderful my life is and how lucky i am:
i am healthy
i have a wonderful, close family
i have switters
i have good friends
i live in a nice place and eat good food
i lost 15 pounds
i've been able to travel to amazing places
i have wonderful memories

more later...