Posted this to a thread in the bikers group.
Movie: Stone
Song from movie (funeral run scene):
Cosmic flash
Intro:
standing on planet earth
well, just one thing I know
though you try so hard to live
one day you got to go
if I'm glad for all the pain
I had the right to choose
it seems a heavy penalty
to know I'm gonna loose
...
Obviously the song goes on but we all make our choices
This song gives me the chills 'cause it reminds me of all my dead mates (close and not so close)
Since I nearly got bumped off again this morning (haha fellow collegue turning into work and didn't see me) It's not a bad time to post.
So shouts out to my best mate Jarrad RIP, Rob (christ he was fast) RIP, Trav (cheeky young fella with a big grin) RIP and Rob my brother RIP. This beer is for them.
These guys died between 1996 and 2006 so thats a decade of motorcycling. Plenty of other bloke I knew have died but these guys had an impact on my life. Better shout out to Steve RIP who according to the psychic is looking out for me
, another top bloke.
I don't wonder why I don't have many close mates (oh look a double negative), I get it when I think about these guys. Sometimes I reckon I'd be happy living like a hermit but the bike keeps me out catching up with mates and meeting new people. Without my bike I'd be lost, yet without my bike I could happily life life as a hermit. Haha look at that bloke who was addicted to world of warcraft!
It's weird sometimes I feel totally lost, adrift in the world and yet I'm not unhappy. In fact most of the time I feel content, I'm obviously happy in my own skin but know I could be doing much more with my time. I don't know if I'm more withdrawn since my brother died late last year, I withdrew from everything but wonder when I'll be getting back on the bike so to speak. Still cuts me up to think about my brother but helping my mum with this shit is a priority right now.
She's actually doing good considering, she went to a psych who said she was really depressed and probably suicidal but for fucks sake, shes been through a lot and has a fair bit on her plate. Truth is she's got far to much to do so she's not checking out any time soon . It makes me sad thinking about mum, my parents broke up when I was a teen and she had a rough trot for years before she upped and left. Nearly broke her heart but she had to get out.
hmmm maybe this rant is going nowhere, so where does it leave me, maybe I need a new hobby to help burn some of my energy. I get hyped up real easy at the moment, next time i'm out I'll be like I'm on drugs I'm wound so tight. Maybe I should get some drugs and find a rave, then again maybe I could find something else.
I don't know, I'm wandering in thought now. Any ideas from readers are obviously welcome. This is far from delicate prose so don't hold back
now about that PhD I never finished.... bahh I have a motivation problem that won't go away....
...even when racing I couldn't be bothered pushing myself during qualifying. It's weird but I never pushed untill the red light went out and the race was on. Maybe I'm too chilled for my own good but one things for sure, I'm not aiming for a stressful life. Who knows I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't, so where is my dream woman who's going to sweep me off my feet? Haha she'll appear when I'm ready, something about the warrior walking his path and all that (as Jarrad used to say).
Thats a good note to leave on.
So bye for now I think I'll go spam some friends blogs.
Movie: Stone
Song from movie (funeral run scene):
Cosmic flash
Intro:
standing on planet earth
well, just one thing I know
though you try so hard to live
one day you got to go
if I'm glad for all the pain
I had the right to choose
it seems a heavy penalty
to know I'm gonna loose
...
Obviously the song goes on but we all make our choices
This song gives me the chills 'cause it reminds me of all my dead mates (close and not so close)
Since I nearly got bumped off again this morning (haha fellow collegue turning into work and didn't see me) It's not a bad time to post.
So shouts out to my best mate Jarrad RIP, Rob (christ he was fast) RIP, Trav (cheeky young fella with a big grin) RIP and Rob my brother RIP. This beer is for them.
These guys died between 1996 and 2006 so thats a decade of motorcycling. Plenty of other bloke I knew have died but these guys had an impact on my life. Better shout out to Steve RIP who according to the psychic is looking out for me
, another top bloke.
I don't wonder why I don't have many close mates (oh look a double negative), I get it when I think about these guys. Sometimes I reckon I'd be happy living like a hermit but the bike keeps me out catching up with mates and meeting new people. Without my bike I'd be lost, yet without my bike I could happily life life as a hermit. Haha look at that bloke who was addicted to world of warcraft!
It's weird sometimes I feel totally lost, adrift in the world and yet I'm not unhappy. In fact most of the time I feel content, I'm obviously happy in my own skin but know I could be doing much more with my time. I don't know if I'm more withdrawn since my brother died late last year, I withdrew from everything but wonder when I'll be getting back on the bike so to speak. Still cuts me up to think about my brother but helping my mum with this shit is a priority right now.
She's actually doing good considering, she went to a psych who said she was really depressed and probably suicidal but for fucks sake, shes been through a lot and has a fair bit on her plate. Truth is she's got far to much to do so she's not checking out any time soon
. It makes me sad thinking about mum, my parents broke up when I was a teen and she had a rough trot for years before she upped and left. Nearly broke her heart but she had to get out.
hmmm maybe this rant is going nowhere, so where does it leave me, maybe I need a new hobby to help burn some of my energy. I get hyped up real easy at the moment, next time i'm out I'll be like I'm on drugs I'm wound so tight. Maybe I should get some drugs and find a rave, then again maybe I could find something else.
I don't know, I'm wandering in thought now. Any ideas from readers are obviously welcome. This is far from delicate prose so don't hold back
now about that PhD I never finished.... bahh I have a motivation problem that won't go away....
...even when racing I couldn't be bothered pushing myself during qualifying. It's weird but I never pushed untill the red light went out and the race was on. Maybe I'm too chilled for my own good but one things for sure, I'm not aiming for a stressful life. Who knows I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't, so where is my dream woman who's going to sweep me off my feet? Haha she'll appear when I'm ready, something about the warrior walking his path and all that (as Jarrad used to say).
Thats a good note to leave on.
So bye for now I think I'll go spam some friends blogs.
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I know it was a stupid quote.
and about being a hermit, I spend a lot of time wishing I were a hermit. I'd be ok without my friends. Maybe. I wouldn't really be a hermit cuz I'd be here and on WoW all the time, so there would be interaction, but...whatever. I'm not a hermit
but if you do become a hermit, let me know so I can say that I know a hermit. And if you ever become a crab, well...you get the picture I'm sure
and I think it's best to not live a stressful life. Me, I'm very laid back about stuff. Outwardly anyway, on the inside I'm usually freaking out, but outwardly I'm just kinda like "whatever..." It can be frustrating. But don't get wound so tightly that you explode. Just keep ridin' keep on keepin' on! Oh, and take it easy, that's another one you should do
Take care!
the PhD is a journey. think of it that way instead of the Alphabetical Title "Destination" that we all do--though easier said than done. What is your dissertation on?
happy monday & thank you for saying hi (=not considered spam!) on my blog!