Self: Brian, do you want a girlfriend?
Me: No, a girlfriend is something a teenager would want or a kid just learning how love works.
Me: I want a companion. A woman that can make me think. Make me laugh at myself or herself in those little quiet moments when you are just hanging out. I want a companion that truly makes me happy about myself and the life we are having together. I want a companion that inspires me to be better and I can do that for her. I want to share a journey not just a role in life. A companion that makes me desire her just as much as I do for her. A companion that in the hardest moments becomes my muse to try harder. We both say "I'm sorry" and know we truly mean it.
Self: You know you sound like a cliche right now?
Me: I know. At the same time I know now the feeling I must have or want to have.
Self: That would have been nice.
Me: Yeah...I know.