I have been so lonely lately, it has been a little unbearable. I was working out really good and trying to find a woman. However after nothing sparking and this going blah with school, I really feel stuck in life. I am not content with myself, my future, my body or my mind. Seeing happy couples is harder, I do my best not feel jealousy and regret, but it gets really tough and even tougher coming home to an empty place.
I broke my foot last fall, since then I have had a rough comeback too. 2 dislocated toes, a broken metatarsal. this only a year and a bit after being stabbed at work in the same damn leg. I just can't get ahead it seems.
On a good note I am working for a good company, for the first time in a while it seems. Still doing armed security but no longer in housing projects. Mostly for local businesses having their share of issues.
Before my weight gain
Now :-/
I am struggling to stay motivated but I want to so much to look good again. I really noticed it after being asked to pose for that pic with the Rogue cosplay chick in Universal Studios...
