barny

thanks for the support and adivce guys

i wish i could say that everything is all better, but its not.

I am really stuck what to do. I've never found anything in the past that has really helped. i need something that will make a difference.

andi think previous experience of cousellors has been so bad and unhelpful that i dont really want to go back. They always suggest i stop seeing them about the time i get suicidal and low again.

i might look into the couselling. but with the way my moods are acting its being really hard

i know after exams it will be better, and hopefully ill have the time, so if i want to go to bed all day i will. lol

I'll also have my boy home whose great at looking after me and keeping life normal.

i hate having to be looked after though, babysat. i should be able to deal on my own. but sumtimes im so scared on my own. of what I'll be like, how far my mind and actions will go.

I have talked to people, and being listened to sumtimes does help, but i need more.

and i dont know what the more is.



*hugs*