barny

just had maybe the worst night of my life,
looks like im going to have to find somewhere new to stay, going to ask around a few friends when i get back but i like my home.
i was in floods of tears and totally shocked, i heard alot of bad things about myself and its really hard to deal with. specially since the people that told me go from "your great" to "your so difficult, your behaviour is horrific" and my confidence is at an alltime low.
im sick of hearing how terrible i am and how rude i am and how much i provoke other people cos im not always easy but its not always my fault, yeah i get arsey if people are arsey to me. but its not always me being arsey first.! ARGH!

have a good week, i get to see my great boyfriend so that should be great WOO! i get laid ... *phew*
bout time to!