barbelith

I have been feeling very worn down by the world recently..... with the cold and trying to find a job ....it seems like everything is such a struggle.....It makes me tired ...tired right down to my soul. Some days are better tehn others but right now I just feel dried up inside..... maybe it comes from being sober for so long....who knows. All I know is I hate this stupid town I have found myslef languishing in for the past year. There is very little that actually keeps me going from day to day...... What is a man to do. It used to be I would have stints like this you know everyoen has a bad time to balance the good. I used to be very lonely being single and without sex for two years does that ...but even then I would have the time of my life go out and laugh with my reinds get fucked up and stay up till dawn. Now I ahve the most wonderful women in all the world and yah I don't always feel this way but when I do it seems that much harder........How do you explain to the person that makes you happy, your one and only that you feel tired and tense ....wound to tight...... Sex helps but breifly.......I need another vacation........