badhandsome

well it's been a rough couple weeks. i had a customer/friend die from a heart attack, then a couple days later a friend of mine decided to blow his brains out. the funerals were last friday and saturday. both wakes were at the bar that i work at. it was somethng like i've never really experienced before. too much sadness. too much heaviness while trying to work and keep people smiling. death is just as much a part of life as birth i guess. all of us are going to die one day somehow. this year has been filled with death in my circle. maybe next year will bring forth some sort of balance as far as that is concerned. i hope so.