Alone... Always seem to be alone when I'm in pain or sick... Amazing how going to er makes my girlfriend want to go out with her friend... She asked me if it was ok... I'm not going to stop her from doing what she wants to do... Even if it means it making me feel unwanted and like I don't matter... Disappointment... Seems to happen a lot... Why can't people just do what they say they are going to do? I never asked her to go with me to my parents tomorrow... She said she wanted to go... Oh wait... She's out drinking now... So now she's not going... Who got up at 5 am to go with her to her surgery? Me! Who took the fucking day off so I could go to her surgery? Me! I really wish I had this awesome ability to only think about myself... Seems like its all the rage these days! I thought I found someone different this time... Someone that wouldn't always let me down.. Beginning to think I was wrong... My fucking jaw hurts... I'm going to bed... Fuck today, fuck "love"... I was once told in a relationship someone always loves the other more... Why does it always have to be me loving them more? I feel pathetic!
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I could say a crap tone of inspirational and motivational words, but at the end of the day your funk has been going on for awhile and I hope you tell her the words you post here, cause you already know the answer is she is simply not right for you if you have and she has gone on to head out anyway.
Sometimes you have to ask someone to be there for you, simply because they do not know you NEED them.
I will keep you in my prayers, Keep you head up & text/call me if you need to talk
<3 : )