oh monday. bringing forth four hours of excersize we call work and time in which hopefully nobody from the 'outside world' can call a million times on the phone or have some kind of crisis. not that those are bad, but a break is nice.
mom is out of the hospital, and is feeling very well. back and work and productive. thank god. she was starting to revert to the obnoxiously controlling because she's so bored mom that i had a falling out with years ago.
we are planning a graduation party for my brother, he graduates the 25th at 7pm - right in the middle of one of our busiest weeks right in the middle of work. how am i going to manage this? i have no clue.
i've been having slight kick-me moments where i am getting all body dismorphia on myself.
nothing like a lack of positive vibes in that area to make a girl second-guess herself.
i've been living in this funny gray area lately. one where my closest hang-out-with friends were friends before me, so i feel like a 3rd wheel a lot of the time. i'm not begging for attention i just feel strange. nobody around here considers me their 'best friend' and i guess in some 3rd grade kind of way that is sad to me. but i'm also at a point right now where it is soooo hard to be close to people. it sucks.
the weather today is very pretty and warm - i wish it would stay this way and not sink back to the gray skies and rain and cooler temps. some sun would do us all a little good.
here's the dumpster that sits not 12ft away from where we park at night behind our duplex. it belongs to the apartment complex behind us, that you can see in the pic. someone set it on fire last week during the dead of night. my roommate woke me up in a frenzy because the dog was barking at it. we called the cops and then watched the flames flare up about 15ft in the air or so, until the firefighters came and hosed everything down. pretty exciting stuff.
mom is out of the hospital, and is feeling very well. back and work and productive. thank god. she was starting to revert to the obnoxiously controlling because she's so bored mom that i had a falling out with years ago.
we are planning a graduation party for my brother, he graduates the 25th at 7pm - right in the middle of one of our busiest weeks right in the middle of work. how am i going to manage this? i have no clue.
i've been having slight kick-me moments where i am getting all body dismorphia on myself.
nothing like a lack of positive vibes in that area to make a girl second-guess herself.
i've been living in this funny gray area lately. one where my closest hang-out-with friends were friends before me, so i feel like a 3rd wheel a lot of the time. i'm not begging for attention i just feel strange. nobody around here considers me their 'best friend' and i guess in some 3rd grade kind of way that is sad to me. but i'm also at a point right now where it is soooo hard to be close to people. it sucks.
the weather today is very pretty and warm - i wish it would stay this way and not sink back to the gray skies and rain and cooler temps. some sun would do us all a little good.
here's the dumpster that sits not 12ft away from where we park at night behind our duplex. it belongs to the apartment complex behind us, that you can see in the pic. someone set it on fire last week during the dead of night. my roommate woke me up in a frenzy because the dog was barking at it. we called the cops and then watched the flames flare up about 15ft in the air or so, until the firefighters came and hosed everything down. pretty exciting stuff.
allychanchan:
tehe, fire. i love it! and i love you and i know this may not count, but i consider you my best friend, and cousin. not one before the other though, cause family is like, family.