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azhben

omaha, nebraska

Member Since 2006

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Friday Apr 21, 2006

Apr 21, 2006
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there are definitely not enough hours in a single day. granted, i could use the ones between 1am and 9am for something other then sleeping and letting the dog out, but i really like my sleep.

there are groceries that need to be bought, a sink full of dishes that are half done and sitting in dirty rinse water, floors that need to be cleaned, a dirty bathroom that i would be absolutely terrified that anybody outside of who lives here see.. laundry to be done. maybe i'm just an absolute closet clean freak, but i never stop seeing things around here that could be done or definitely are in dire need of being done. i think that having the ventilation cleaned out with probably help a lot with the dust problem that never ends. but hey, they can't bother to do other things that need to be done, i doubt they'll do that.

i've been thinking of putting color in my hair again. i was at the mall yesterday and this girl at wet seal had bright pink hair and her septum pierced and i just missed having colorful hair so bad. ah, boys and the things you do for them. i don't know what i'm gonna do.

my friend larissa got her labret pierced last night, she's very excited about it. she says the ball is too big for what she would usually wear once it heals, so her boyfriend is probably going to freak out. i hate that the general attitude of this place is so against body modification, even dying your hair, as this city is. mad

the weather is so beautiful, i can't wait for the weekend - i'd love to go play in it. we may have to stay within walking distance, though. gas at $3/gallon is killer. especially when all the cheap shopping is far away, and all the bars around here are ultra sceney.

i get to leave work early tonight to go out with everybody... again. tongue we'll be going to watch the dueling pianos show at dj's dugout. should be fun.

yesterday i was thinking about how i kinda missed having a boyfriend, or a close guy friend, since one of my last guy friends got a different job and i don't get to talk to him.. uhm.. EVER. i miss the honesty and shit-giving that guy friends offer.

wierdly enough, one of my co-workers came up to me and said, "I know you're going through a lot with your mom right now, and just have a lot on your shoulders. But I just wanted to tell you, that since you know, the seperation, you've seemed a whole lot happier and so much stronger. I just.. wanted you to know that."

it was kinda everything i needed to hear. i wasn't sure how the world was watching me, i lose touch with that sometimes. it was nice to feel the ground under my feet again and know that i'm still likeable and i don't know.. strong and happy appearing? i am happy, i just don't know if other people really see it or not. that probably doesn't make sense.

my battery's gonna die and i have things to do!

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