ayurvedium

It doesn't hurt me.
Do you want to feel how it feels?
Do you want to know that it doesn't hurt me?
Do you want to hear about the deal that I'm making?
You, it's you and me.

You don't want to hurt me,
But see how deep the bullet lies.
Unaware I'm tearing you asunder.
Ooh, there is thunder in our hearts.

Is there...
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at home and bored on a saturday night?

try this:

watch fight club, then watch hbo's real sex (the sg ep) back to back.

what an extravaganza!

and remember, as mr. durden said so succinctly: "the first rule of fight club is-- you do not talk about suicide grrls."

am i the only suicide boi? grrl? person? who has not seen donny darko?

trent wrote this, then johnny cash covered it:

I hurt myself today
To see if i still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But i remember everything
What have i become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone i know
Goes away in the end
You could have...
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in the mail!

today!

yay!

my sg stickers arrived!

now they will mysteriously find their way onto highly visible and largely inappropriate venues.

i love this song from sophie b. hawkins' cd, whaler:

It felt like spring time on this February morning
In a courtyard birds were singing your praise
I'm still recalling things you said to make me feel alright
I carried them with me today

As I lay me down to sleep
This I pray
That you will hold me dear
Though I'm far away...
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i am an addict in recovery. as part of my recovery, i had to write a "goodbye" letter to my addiction:


I remember our first date. It was a blind date, really, in the sense that I didn't know that we were going to hook up. Someone introduced me to you at a party, an "after rehearsal party." I was a freshman at the University...
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my pupils were dilated this morning by my opthtalmologist.

so cat #5, otto manfringinsin, has an entry he'd like to share:

My captors continue to taunt me with bizarre little dangling objects. They dine lavishly on fresh meat, while I am forced to eat dry cereal. The only thing that keeps me going is the hope of escape, and the mild satisfaction I get from...
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more authors:

Arthur Miller, Ezra Pound, Virginia Woolfe, Jane Austen, Mark Twain, Ralph Ellison, William Carlos Williams, George Orwell, Toni Morrison, Karl Marx, William Faulkner, Allen Ginsberg, Emily Dickinson, Ernest Hemmingway, Franz Kafka, Phillip K. Dick, Ray Bradbury, Harland Ellison, Hunter S. Thompson, Ursula K. Le Guin, Madeleine L'Engle, Douglas Adams.

#2: so this is all the room they provide for favorite bands? not enough.