I like it here, it's public but private at the same time, there are beautiful women at every turn, wonderful things to read and absorb and care about. I also feel I can talk here about things that I can't in other places because I don't really think all eyes are on me. Whereas on my facebook everyone is reading and judging and knowing me, and a dating site I can't be the imperfect me because I'm trying to attract women. None of that exists here.
I am a 26 year old virgin, it's one of the most frustrating things I live with. Being 26, closer to 30 than 20 is one thing, being a chubby virgin geek is another. Combined together it makes me really sad to be me (again something I can finally say without fear of reprisal). I have recently decided and begun to make some changes to my demeanor to my activities so that I'm not just a guy feeling sorry for myself.But I honestly wish I was someone else. Someone better looking and maybe more charming. I'd trade all my talent for that, but I'm just me so far so stuck lol. Speaking of talent here's another poem.
Preface: There is a certain insignificance to our lives, to all lives on the scale of everything,everywhere, of all time, in all the universes. A moment is the most insignificant thing of all, isn't it. It passes by briefly and we never know it was there. That's not true though, to us, to each other we matter we are significant. Our moments make up our lives and this poem is a hope for a moment to be immortal to be the opposite for a Moment to be something that is forever.
Moments/Forever
I hope a moment like this
lives forever
Unto itself floating and eternal
I pray our briefness
and insignificance mean nothing
that our moments fly and live forever
that they never die
I hope in the grand scheme of it all
this moment means everything
I hope amongst the stars
through every galaxy
This moment shines forever
and glows like an ember survining
a raging inferno
I hope this moment means everything
because this moment means so much more to me