avidity

now...



i was really not feeling my lunch date. i actually slept in today, and was just wanting to stay in bed for the day. but i do this. i always push people off that i haven't met. i really think i need to go back on depression meds. not that i'm all down and stuff, but i find such a hard time with motivation, or wanting to do anything but exist on my own, and stay in my house. i didn't feel that way when i was on meds. eh we'll see. first job, then doctor visits.

anyways, right when i convinced myself that i was going to drag my sleepy ass to the shower, he texted me and had to reschedule. his nephew was in the hospital. that is one thing i do like about this guy. he is very involved with his family. that and he's not a soldier lol. so we'll see what happens.

i am half way through rearranging. i have all the furniture moved to where i want it, now it's onto lighting and decor. i should have bought another box of icicle lights during the holidays. i want to put them around my room again, and i only have one set.

tis all i have for the moment. i'm watching one of my favorite movies EVER, bridget jones's diary.
this movie is my life i swear.