Hey all,
I'm full of flu at the moment so I guess that makes it a prime time to write a blog and let you know what's new with me!
So let's start with the bad news, I've had a couple of drama's over the past two weeks from being in hospital due to having a rare skin condition that appeared overnight, leaving me looking like my own dog which left me with over 30 blotched spots all over my legs, thankfully these have calmed down to bruises now! another boring note is, I actually got let off at work the other day and my hours got cut massively, so now I'm frantically trying to sort my portfolio, to start the boring mare of job hunting again! I didn't really take the news too well but then with the support from friends and family, it made me realise if its meant to be, it will be. So onwards and upwards from here right! Because I'm certainly worth more than that!
THE FUN STUFF
At the beginning of September I went on my first proper sunny holiday, which meant my first time flying and all the drama that comes with it, like weight restrictions, security and how to store your liquids, which is really hard for a girl who LOVES makeup.
This trip abroad was unlike any other trip, I went to Corfu with a few of the gorgeous ladies and gentleman from UK SG, all arranged by the super organised @midnightpoison who was super kind and so sweet! And put up with me panicking about every single thing!
Anyway, so first time flying, first time abroad, no pressure right.. I WAS SHITTING MYSELF, meeting all these amazing people for the first time in a country I was so unfamiliar with. To add everyone was absolutely STUNNING in their own unique way, I felt like such a potato being next to such extraordinary individuals. I'm a bit of a panicker, so I will put it like this... I REALLY DON'T LIKE LIZARDS, BUGS, ANYTHING THAT I'VE NEVER SEEN BEFORE REALLY
My first time, my anxiety took over and I was a little bit of a state and couldn't quite take in everything new that was happening around me so I had to take myself away from the group, until the next day.. all that was running through my head was I bet they thought I was such a pompous bitch. It takes me a while to adjust and to come out of my shell, I'm an absolute weirdo once you give me time, get to know me and I can be super fun when I have a couple of sambucca's, honest.
Anyway, the next day everyone was super lovely. I started to get to know everyone's characteristics and see such amazing friendships form! Half way through the week, you begin to think how mad it is that none of us knew each other prior to the trip beside from social media and talking on the group WhatsApp. (which is still going strong may I add)
During the course of the trip I shot with the talented @valo and @niallpatterson - the sets we shot are absolutely beautiful, I get emotional when I see pictures of myself because my first reaction is 'oh my goodness that's me, I look pretty' 'oooo damn girl' - I've struggled with my self image for many many years, but since joining Suicide Girls, I have gained so much confidence and began to love every inch of myself, which I never thought I would be able to do!
I have babbled on so much now, but I just want to say how grateful I am to be part of this community. You have made me see myself in such a positive light and take on opportunities that I never thought I would be doing!
@missy @rambo 💕💕💕
