avenger

its amazing to me that i have made it 27 times around the sun (which in rock n roll mythology is the year to die) and only regret one thing. i only regret losing one person. i only regret actions i took that led to her no longer existing in my life. its amazing because i have made an infinite amount of bad decisions and done an uncountable amount of stupid things and as i look back the only thing that saddens me is losing that girl. that one girl. that one perfect girl. i was 19 years old and maybe my youthful ignorance allowed me to put this time, and this girl on a pedestal. but i don't think so. i look back and see things i could have done (or not done) that would have changed everything,,,that would have allowed us to still be together...would i be happy? would we have made it this far? those questions are pointless i suppose. i think my mother may have stopped sending her birthday cards last year.
i still dream of her...i still miss her.