Fucking miserable. Got our car a week and a half ago.Fucking LOVE it! Already been to the beach, planning to go to Hamilton to see the Waterfalls with the kids this weekend, then of course, life happened.
Im on something called ODSP, basically its like welfare for people with disabilities and severe mental issues that prevent them from working and being a normal member of society. Every few years you get something called a re-assessment date, when they review it, go over your symptoms and conditions and see if anything has changed. Mine was in 2010 and STILL hasnt happened yet, but whatever. Anyways. Few days after we got the car, the bank were financing through decided they want a letter from ODSP stating when my re-assesment date is. I gave them one, my worker made up a date because she has no idea when the date is, she doesnt deal with that. Well, they decided its not good enough. Our old car is already sold and gone, but if we dont get them a letter stating my re-assesment date isnt until 2016, they are cancelling our loan and take back the car. And its perfectly normal! Unfortunately, my worker doesnt know what the fuck shes supposed to do. She doesnt know when my re-assesment date was, she already gave me a letter dated for 2014 DESPITE the fact she doesnt even know that for sure. But if it doesnt say 2016 were fucked. Awesome huh! AND Im not even the one paying! My boyfriend is! He works full time, but they said if it wasnt for me, they wouldnt have even approved it to begin with. Needless to say Im pretty pissed off and ready to burn down the dealership. I dont care if its the banks issue or not, they never said they needed this to begin with, yet the dumb ass owner is saying they did. Then the owner decided to be an asshole to my boyfriend. So basically, not in a good mood. We thought we got lucky, paying 14% interest instead of a whopping 24% interest, and wed raise our credit rating in the process and in a few years qualify to get a mortgage. Now? Looks like were going to get fucked over, dont know if they will give us our full downpayment back if they do take the car, and will more then likely have to take the 24% interest. Awesome huh? And I dont even drive!
So, after that, my son decided he wanted to sneak into my daughters room, 4 times, after bedtime. He listens to my mom who babies him and tries to pretend shes his mother, more then he listens to me. I know hes a kid, but then when I give him crap, my mom steps in and cuddles him like hes an infant with a boo-boo. And she wonders why I want to move the fuck out of this city. At least then Id have some distance from her. I love her, but she has NEVER let me raise my own son, and no matter what I do, she makes me feel like shit. So, theres that.
Then my cats got out, apparently sometime during the day. We have 4 cats, Lived (pronounced Live-Ed), Whitepaw, Hack, and Moo. Hack and Lived came back, Whitepaw is the fat lazy one and was to lazy to leave, and Moo still hasnt come back yet. Best thing, is shes in heat. So if she does come back, shell probably be knocked up, because thats what I need - at least 2 more cats right? I feel like an idiot and a horrible parent. All day I didnt clue in the cats were MIA, and never noticed that the kids apparently had the back door open for a long period of time. I was balling my eyes out last night. Me and stress dont mix. And to top it off my boyfriend doesnt understand why the shit with the car bothers me so much.
I planned trips in my head, got all excited because from the time we got together, I did shit with my parents without him. The beach, ice cream, swimming, shopping out of town, etc, because his car wouldnt make it. I LOVE being able to finally go out as a family and not have to worry that our car will blow up. 2 years weve been together and JUST went to the beach for the first time together because of the car. And now someone is threatening to take that away because of ME. But he doesnt see that. He thinks its no big deal. I cant help but think that maybe if my head wasnt all fucked up and I wasnt on ODSP to begin with, shit would be easier. I cant get a loan because of ODSP, cant buy a house, nothing. But he doesnt understand that.
I should be used to this though. As soon as something good happens, 5 shitty things happen. Every. Time. So why am I surprised? Fuck if I know.
Plus my photographer is crapping out on me. Again. So no SG for me I guess. Ill never be able to take a self-shot set good enough to go pink.
So, there ya go. Now Im off to the store to get water because I need to diet. Im only 120 lbs, but Im sick of this pudge I got going on.
Im on something called ODSP, basically its like welfare for people with disabilities and severe mental issues that prevent them from working and being a normal member of society. Every few years you get something called a re-assessment date, when they review it, go over your symptoms and conditions and see if anything has changed. Mine was in 2010 and STILL hasnt happened yet, but whatever. Anyways. Few days after we got the car, the bank were financing through decided they want a letter from ODSP stating when my re-assesment date is. I gave them one, my worker made up a date because she has no idea when the date is, she doesnt deal with that. Well, they decided its not good enough. Our old car is already sold and gone, but if we dont get them a letter stating my re-assesment date isnt until 2016, they are cancelling our loan and take back the car. And its perfectly normal! Unfortunately, my worker doesnt know what the fuck shes supposed to do. She doesnt know when my re-assesment date was, she already gave me a letter dated for 2014 DESPITE the fact she doesnt even know that for sure. But if it doesnt say 2016 were fucked. Awesome huh! AND Im not even the one paying! My boyfriend is! He works full time, but they said if it wasnt for me, they wouldnt have even approved it to begin with. Needless to say Im pretty pissed off and ready to burn down the dealership. I dont care if its the banks issue or not, they never said they needed this to begin with, yet the dumb ass owner is saying they did. Then the owner decided to be an asshole to my boyfriend. So basically, not in a good mood. We thought we got lucky, paying 14% interest instead of a whopping 24% interest, and wed raise our credit rating in the process and in a few years qualify to get a mortgage. Now? Looks like were going to get fucked over, dont know if they will give us our full downpayment back if they do take the car, and will more then likely have to take the 24% interest. Awesome huh? And I dont even drive!
So, after that, my son decided he wanted to sneak into my daughters room, 4 times, after bedtime. He listens to my mom who babies him and tries to pretend shes his mother, more then he listens to me. I know hes a kid, but then when I give him crap, my mom steps in and cuddles him like hes an infant with a boo-boo. And she wonders why I want to move the fuck out of this city. At least then Id have some distance from her. I love her, but she has NEVER let me raise my own son, and no matter what I do, she makes me feel like shit. So, theres that.
Then my cats got out, apparently sometime during the day. We have 4 cats, Lived (pronounced Live-Ed), Whitepaw, Hack, and Moo. Hack and Lived came back, Whitepaw is the fat lazy one and was to lazy to leave, and Moo still hasnt come back yet. Best thing, is shes in heat. So if she does come back, shell probably be knocked up, because thats what I need - at least 2 more cats right? I feel like an idiot and a horrible parent. All day I didnt clue in the cats were MIA, and never noticed that the kids apparently had the back door open for a long period of time. I was balling my eyes out last night. Me and stress dont mix. And to top it off my boyfriend doesnt understand why the shit with the car bothers me so much.
I planned trips in my head, got all excited because from the time we got together, I did shit with my parents without him. The beach, ice cream, swimming, shopping out of town, etc, because his car wouldnt make it. I LOVE being able to finally go out as a family and not have to worry that our car will blow up. 2 years weve been together and JUST went to the beach for the first time together because of the car. And now someone is threatening to take that away because of ME. But he doesnt see that. He thinks its no big deal. I cant help but think that maybe if my head wasnt all fucked up and I wasnt on ODSP to begin with, shit would be easier. I cant get a loan because of ODSP, cant buy a house, nothing. But he doesnt understand that.
I should be used to this though. As soon as something good happens, 5 shitty things happen. Every. Time. So why am I surprised? Fuck if I know.
Plus my photographer is crapping out on me. Again. So no SG for me I guess. Ill never be able to take a self-shot set good enough to go pink.
So, there ya go. Now Im off to the store to get water because I need to diet. Im only 120 lbs, but Im sick of this pudge I got going on.
talamia:
Aw poo Sorry about the trouble going on, and I hope Moo comes back soon, and doesn't come back knocked up