Today is the day. One last date with the Boy...and that's the end. We're going to have a walk in the park, and go to McCormick and Shmick for dinner (spelling?), one last...possibly overly dramatic...evening together.
It would be so much easier if there was some sort of major event that was the cause of the break-up...to make it easier. Like finding out he's actually...
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It would be so much easier if there was some sort of major event that was the cause of the break-up...to make it easier. Like finding out he's actually...
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Sometimes I like exploring dark places of this world that just about everyone doesn't like to think about. I do it because it's part of Reality, it's Truth, and it's horrible, and it's a lesson on just how beautiful Beautiful really is. Or how lucky Lucky really is. Or how precious the breath you just took is, and how many breaths you take for granted....
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jamber:
Im happy i was able to turn you day around!
I really do love helping women have babies. Being a Doula is really rewarding work.
Knowing I turned your day around helped to turn my day around.
Funny how that works, huh?
I really do love helping women have babies. Being a Doula is really rewarding work.
Knowing I turned your day around helped to turn my day around.
Funny how that works, huh?
itzie:
I used to be addicted to the darkness.. but I guess i'm in rehab now. My addiction made me fuck up several of my relationships, and I almost lost the one I'm with now because I craved the intensity that came from it. Ive never felt more alive....but i cant have my fucking cake and all that... so here I am now. nice boring quiet life. I have goals and dreams now that i never had, which might lead me nowhere... have I learned to be happy being happy yet? I dont know.. i guess im not quite there yet. ??? am i talking?
New favorite drink: raspberry lemondrop martini with chambord. Yum yum yum. But don't mistake it for being weak in the alchohol content and shoot it because, as you will find by the gently increasing warmth in your tummy, that there was indeed a healthy portion of it.
Day one of the month long "break" from my boy. As of yet I do not feel the...
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Day one of the month long "break" from my boy. As of yet I do not feel the...
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Follow your bliss.
The heroic life is living the individual
adventure.
Nothing is exciting
if you know
what the outcome is going to be.
To refuse the call
means stagnation.
What you don't experience positively
you will experience negatively.
You enter the forest
at the darkest point,
where there is no path.
Where there is a way or path,
it is someone else's path.
You...
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The heroic life is living the individual
adventure.
Nothing is exciting
if you know
what the outcome is going to be.
To refuse the call
means stagnation.
What you don't experience positively
you will experience negatively.
You enter the forest
at the darkest point,
where there is no path.
Where there is a way or path,
it is someone else's path.
You...
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polly:
haha yeah! that's so weird.
well, i guess it really isn't. nice to see you on here.
well, i guess it really isn't. nice to see you on here.
Went to a bridal shower the other day. It was an intense experience. Firsty, because it was a social situation I hadn't been in for awhile. It was a group of almost entirely strangers, a group of women, an occassion that called for lots of one on one chit chatting. Oddly enough, I've grown to be quite a hermit and I didn't do to well...
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Mentally, emotionally, physically, spiritually, hypothetically, literally exhausted. I'm pooped. I have this conflict going on inside right now, involving alone time versus non-alone time...each side pulling me with equal weight in opposite directions...pulling me thin, and causing my brain to bounce from one perspective to the other so rapidly that they cancel each other out, leaving my brain numb and confused, trying to make sense...
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juliana:
Ohhh L. You are such a Gemini. But that's a good thing.
Self-doubt. Failing as an illustrator. Distractions. No thought, skill or strain applied.
... yeah, I can relate. Certainly.
You've got crazy work ethic going on for you though. Even your choice to get more training even though you've already got your degree just proves you're dedicated to getting this done right. I honestly think you're going to be fine.
Self-doubt at this point is pretty commonplace. Not that this invalidates your feelings, but I can't imagine anyone having finished Bunny's class without feeling they got torn a new one somewhere along the way.
Just wait til animation gets a hold of ya. But don't worry and just do the work. They respect effort. Your feelings about your abilities will go up and down -- regardless of actual skill level -- but that's how it goes for the rest of our lives anyway.
So chin up. Chin up and remember Hokusai.
Self-doubt. Failing as an illustrator. Distractions. No thought, skill or strain applied.
... yeah, I can relate. Certainly.
You've got crazy work ethic going on for you though. Even your choice to get more training even though you've already got your degree just proves you're dedicated to getting this done right. I honestly think you're going to be fine.
Self-doubt at this point is pretty commonplace. Not that this invalidates your feelings, but I can't imagine anyone having finished Bunny's class without feeling they got torn a new one somewhere along the way.
Just wait til animation gets a hold of ya. But don't worry and just do the work. They respect effort. Your feelings about your abilities will go up and down -- regardless of actual skill level -- but that's how it goes for the rest of our lives anyway.
So chin up. Chin up and remember Hokusai.
My first post, hurrah. Really sent out to nobody at all. There's no one to read this right now, so it's like a personal diary post, until someone discovers me. I know whose eyes will see this first. Hi, Cakes. I was thinking earlier today about how I would go about presenting myself to the masses that may be tuning in. My current mission is...
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juliana:
An eviable first entry.
I miss you. Are you back yet? (Can you tell I haven't been back to the house yet? Hah!)
I miss you. Are you back yet? (Can you tell I haven't been back to the house yet? Hah!)
aurora_b_alice:
hehe....written long ago. Haven't touched my goddamn blog since. I'm so lazy, and a chicken. I'm a lazy chicken, I could draw a cute little pic of that....but I'm too lazy. Well, I'm back now and I see a few subtle clues that you were here. Hope to see you again soon!
Anyway, I'd be up for hanging out sometime. I don't know anyone or go anywhere ever though, so I have no suggestions...
oh, and I like long comments
You're boy looks quite studly in the vanity photos. You sure about what you're doing? Good luck.
I think there's 3 types of guys.
Mr. Right - what you're looking for when you've got Mr. Right now.
Mr. Right now - what you're looking for when you've got nobody.
Mr. Right when I'm 50 - and don't mind settling.
Oh Thanks for the tips bout Golden.