aurora_b_alice

My first post, hurrah. Really sent out to nobody at all. There's no one to read this right now, so it's like a personal diary post, until someone discovers me. I know whose eyes will see this first. Hi, Cakes. I was thinking earlier today about how I would go about presenting myself to the masses that may be tuning in. My current mission is to rediscover my once faithfully followed mission to be as "real" as possible. Whatever that could possibly mean. I think you might get the idea. To me real means completely in the moment, with no pretense, hidden agenda, self-conciousness. Letting yourself spring forward with no filters, no second thoughts, no pauses to censor due an insecurity about how anyone might judge you. 7 years in California have left my once open and unassuming self frozen in self-consiousness and ettiquette. So, ironically, even though I'm broadcasting myself into a world where I could present myself in any way I could possibly want, I'm going to stick to the Truth. I don't care if you think I'm cool, or sexy, or niave, or ignorant, or silly, or uncultured, or paranoid. Because I am, and a lot of other things too. But I'm going to be figuring out exactly what I am along with you. Maybe you can help.