audaciazero

For a few hours now I've been chatting online with a friend. She's lonely, like me. The conversation leaves me awash with melancholy. She is missing someone tonight. Who wants to have sex and party but wants nothing more. She doesn't want to feel the way she does, but she does want more. He doesn't drive so apparently this makes him a loser, but I think it's a bit harsh. She has days where she is 100% raw nerve and I know exactly how that feels. It's awful. I don't know how to help her. I know the right words to say, but I would be saying them to the both of us.

I guess sometimes we have to know what it feels like to be kept at arms length. To not hear the right things, to not get the chance. To offer oneself and have the offer declined. To feel inadequate, temporary.


You can't always get what you want.