I don't think I'll ever get closure.
When their hands and mouth are all over your body, and their mind is on someone else.
Nobody should have to go through this. Nobody should know what this feels like.
Sunday was the day I got both nipples pierced. The sensitivity at first was close to unbearable. Then Monday, I was still very sensitive but there was zero pain. It was honestly enjoyable for a portion of the day! Today, I can wear a bra normally without feeling a thing. It's amazing.
I got my nipples pierced today! I love them, I really do. Hopefully the soreness goes away soon owwww.
It was a nice treat to myself, I've been down lately.
I can feel it coming. The spiral into a dark place.
For a few hours now I've been chatting online with a friend. She's lonely, like me. The conversation leaves me awash with melancholy. She is missing someone tonight. Who wants to have sex and party but wants nothing more. She doesn't want to feel the way she does, but she does want more. He doesn't drive so apparently this makes him a loser, but I...
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I'm exhausted. Key West was intoxicating. wonderful. Work is as busy as it is going to get, and fixing to stay that way for the rest of the year. It's all quite draining, in the best way. My goal at the moment is to stay in a positive headspace. Shouldn't be too hard, I keep flashing back to my recent trip and I wish every...
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I woke up about seven hours ago with this inexplicable bad feeling, I cannot shake it. I am not religious, spiritual, or superstitious. I just finished packing for a weekend in Key West. A much needed getaway. I hope it's a good experience.
What a week I have had! Lost my phone ($200), ex pays a full bill early using my money and not his ($200), lost my voice (apparently it's either adorable or scary), bad review at work, I can keep going...I've also been offered a choice. The same choice, multiple offers. For now, it is best to choose not to choose. I can't decide if I...
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I have a lot on my mind.
Every employment choice I have made has taught me to become more and more observant. I don't consider it a skill, as useful as it can be. A burden. My current job has taught me the art of not reacting. I'm very aware of when I am being lied to, when facts/circumstances/encounters are being omitted based on what my reaction might be, when promises are...
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I pretend I'm better than I really am. Not that I'm in a bad way. More like I pretend situations are ok when they are not, pretend I'm just going to be cool when on the inside I'm not. I'm getting better at the charade but there will always be times when it is written over my face. Like last night.