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i have once again become the all-consuming, all-devouring. am constantly hungry. eat big lunches and generous dinners, yoked to one another by a chain of snacks. am not entirely sure why, all i know is that i can't afford to keep buying a lot of candy bars. ate two at work today - one big kat and one twix... twix used to be my standby, until i dumped them for big kat. it felt kind of nice to revisit again. was just now thinking of getting a third candy bar now (probably another big kat), but decided to be reasonable and instead am piling into this styrofoam cup of pops cereal dwindling before me.

has anyone else noticed that there don't seem to be three musketeers in vending machines anymore lately? if they're yanking them for good, the same way they took away all the milky ways, well... i swear i never fully recovered from the disappearance of the milky ways. those bastards. it was *the* single finest candy bar out there, and they've put it on the endargered species list with no explanation, no comment, no remorse... i just can't understand. big kat may be good enoungh to parallel the milky way, but nonetheless: i shall never forget.

i'm having a bit of trouble reaching whatever it was i needed to write about on sunday - my monday was plenty long enough to dull the memory of the weekend and whatever thoughts were going through my head at the time. and i knew that was gonna happen, dammit. was still a good one, though, a superb one - talked with film folk about making some special effects for them - uneasy a bit, i'm not entirely confident of being able to deliver, but i'll try. dawningness all over, fantastic. must convince them to slip some fischerspooner into the playlist though, i miss it. got to hang out with shakti and stephen, though not long enough - had to run back to clemons to work on video stuff and then run randomly over to the hairplace for a 'consultation' that must have taken all of seven minutes and left me stranded up 29 for an hour - dopey upscale hairpeople really ought to try and give a person some sense of how long such things are gonna take. and then had to dash back for more film stuff, and took so long...

sunday went hiking up at sugar hollow for awhile - was a beautiful day. feel a little like i'm running behind again now, though.

last week was good - i felt like i got stuff done. i'm back to being a bit anxious for no clear reason though, and it's hard to seperate out cause and effect.

presented in art today - got kudos for having a strong portfolio - lots of good comments, people especially liked my figure drawings and said i have a playful sort of line to my work. i just ate it up, naturally. somebody picked up on my selective attention, as well though - it's true, if i'm interested in something i draw it very well and in a high level of detail, but the stuff that doesn't catch my eye i fill in a bit more mechanically. i don't do it on purpose - the nice thing is that i find every bit of people interesting, so it doesn't matter in my figure drawings in the least. probably partially explains why they come out so solidly. but landscapes, eh...

am still working on C# and database processing in flash. i really go up and down in my degree of self-assurance, there. o well.

am twitchy. bah. want to work out tomorrow.